if i survive...
i'll become a stronger person...
but if i don't...
what will i become?

if i reset my boundaries...
shrink my desires to a lesser realm...
will i habituate to a lower standard...
or will i learn to to reach for what i can?

if i were to vanish...
run away from the reality that hurts too much...
will my existence be etched in the emptiness that follows...
or will my disappearance fade into dusk?

if my weakness is the other side of my strength...
like a coin with just two sides...
will tossing it again show me the side of hope...
or will it once again prove that chance is just not good enough?