there are days when i just sit in front of my comp and want to blog
yet my brain refuse to cooperate...
like today...
what do i want to blog about?
too many many things...
unfortunately, so many many of them cannot be published for various reasons...
sigh...
gone are the days when i just blurb everything out and heck care the consequences...
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a friend is doing her masters right now...
a friend told me that she might be doing her masters in about 2 years time..
another friend is planning to do her masters in about 1-2 years time...
my 'supervisors' are asking me if i have plans to do my masters...
my mum is asking me to do my masters before i get married (if i get married)...
what's with the masters craze?
perhaps, deep down inside, i'm just a lazy bum...
not that i don't like to learn new things...
if masters-by-coursework = new skills, new knowledge = better care of patients
i'll jump right into a masters program now.
but, in reality...
masters = revision of skills, some new skills, some new knowledge + whole load more admin work
it's the last bit that i really don't want to take on...
i dunno how many PTs actually dun mind the admin part...
ok, to be completely honest, i dun mind the admin part...
it's the stayingbacktofinishadminwork part that i mind...
and the bringworkhomebecausecannotfinishadminwork part that i really really mind..
sometimes, doing admin work is like taking a breather from clinical work...
provided there's the time to take a breather and do admin work...
most of the time, admin work is like an additional workload...
for 8 hours, one patient after another...
and then before and after the 8 hours, admin time
some PTs probably thrive with that kind of lives...
those PTs who are not lazy and slacker like me...
so masters or not...i don't really know...
i'd rather attend courses and upgrade my clinical skills...
i'm totally fine with being a physio for the rest of my working life..
the 'senior' word...doesn't really appeal to me..
as i've told a few of my 'senior physios' before..
"if i can, i want to be a junior physio forever"
as for specialisation...
that is an even bigger headache...
what do i want to specialise in?
nothing
yep...
i can't decide...
i do have preferences...
but within the preferred choices, there are more specialised fields...
and so, for now...
i'll just hover above all the special fields...
and maybe one day..
i'll hear my calling and decide that the grass is the greenest in one particular field..
till then,
i'll try to remain as open-minded as i can...
and keep my ears open for the calling...
and keep my eyes open for the greenest pasture...
what is economics?
a social science concerned chiefly with description and analysis of the production, distribution, and consumption of goods and services
(http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/economics)
the study of how society uses its scarce resources.
(http://www.economist.com/research/economics/alphabetic.cfm?letter=E#economics)
and believe it or not, i had my first economics lesson by Mr Li MJ on board bus 852 yesterday...
i learnt the definition of 'demand'
(stuff which people are WILLING and ABLE to pay for)
i think i'm supposed to have learnt the definition of 'suppy'
(ehh...'stuff' which are available at a price that the 'supplier' is willing to offer?. sorry MJ, i am not good with definitions.......)
and then, MJ decided that i was smart enough to understand demand curve
A graph showing the relationship between the price of a good and the amount of demand for it at different prices
(http://www.economist.com/research/economics/alphabetic.cfm?term=demandcurve#demandcurve)
but obviously he overestimated me...
and i drew a complete blank when he drew the graph...
a simple linear graph...it wasn't even a curve!
so he tries to explain it...
"at a particular price, there will be certain quantity that is 'in demand'
i.e. at a particular price, people are willing and able to pay for a certain amount of the 'stuff'
so at P1, people are willing and able to buy Q1. But at P2, people are willing and able to buy Q2. so the graph is a plot of all these prices and quantities....get it?"
idiot that i was, i was completely dumbfounded...
and i think MJ was starting to regret this impromptu econs lesson on a bus...
enters my 'cheeseburger' explanation
"so, if cheeseburgers are sold at say $1 per burger (P1), people are willing and able to buy 10 (Q1). But if sold at $0.50 per burger (P2), people are willing and able to buy 20 (Q2). and so on and so forth...right?"
from my perspective, MJ beamed like a proud parent...
or maybe he was just glad that i finally am starting to get some of the things he is talking about
-_-
He then went on to explain suppy curve
A graph of the relationship between the price of a good and the amount supplied at different prices. (http://www.economist.com/research/economics/alphabetic.cfm?letter=S#supplycurve)
He didn't draw a graph this time cos i stopped him
(i only need to feel like an idiot once a day)
but in my own head, i visualised a graph with the opposite relationship
so based on 'cheeseburgers',
if selling at $1 per burger, 20 burgers will be supplied. If selling at $0.50 per burger, 10 burgers will be supplied... (or something to that effect)
so...if these 2 graphs are superimposed on each other..
there will be an intersection point
known as Equilibrium, when supply and demand are in balance.
At the equilibrium price, the quantity that buyers are willing to buy exactly matches the quantity that sellers are willing to sell. (http://www.economist.com/research/economics/alphabetic.cfm?letter=E#equilibrium)
Therefore, in terms of "cheeseburgers"...
Supplier willing to make 15 burgers at $0.75 each, and consumers willing and able to pay for 15 burgers at $0.75 each
everyone is happy! supply meets demand!
and with that, my first lesson in economics ended *PHEW*
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of course, all of the econs students (ex, present, future) are waiting to slaughter me for oversimplifying the graphs and relationships...
but hey!
any lay person out there will be happier with my 'cheeseburger' explanation...
because seriously,
jargon should be reserved for the 'pros'
MJ is really hyped that i am starting to take 1 tiny step in understanding something that is very important and useful to him
me?
i just hope that i dun look like an idiot all the time when he talks about econs...
and now...
it's sunday afternoon...
no more work...
back to my trashy novel :D
PS: i know my graphs doesn't truly reflect the 'cheeseburger' explanation because the gradients of both graphs do not match. But, it was just for representation...not drawn to scale and not possible to unless i waste the rest of my sunday using Paint to come up with perfect graphs.
a social science concerned chiefly with description and analysis of the production, distribution, and consumption of goods and services
(http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/economics)
the study of how society uses its scarce resources.
(http://www.economist.com/research/economics/alphabetic.cfm?letter=E#economics)
and believe it or not, i had my first economics lesson by Mr Li MJ on board bus 852 yesterday...
i learnt the definition of 'demand'
(stuff which people are WILLING and ABLE to pay for)
i think i'm supposed to have learnt the definition of 'suppy'
(ehh...'stuff' which are available at a price that the 'supplier' is willing to offer?. sorry MJ, i am not good with definitions.......)
and then, MJ decided that i was smart enough to understand demand curve
A graph showing the relationship between the price of a good and the amount of demand for it at different prices
(http://www.economist.com/research/economics/alphabetic.cfm?term=demandcurve#demandcurve)
but obviously he overestimated me...
and i drew a complete blank when he drew the graph...
a simple linear graph...it wasn't even a curve!
so he tries to explain it...
"at a particular price, there will be certain quantity that is 'in demand'
i.e. at a particular price, people are willing and able to pay for a certain amount of the 'stuff'
so at P1, people are willing and able to buy Q1. But at P2, people are willing and able to buy Q2. so the graph is a plot of all these prices and quantities....get it?"
idiot that i was, i was completely dumbfounded...
and i think MJ was starting to regret this impromptu econs lesson on a bus...
enters my 'cheeseburger' explanation
"so, if cheeseburgers are sold at say $1 per burger (P1), people are willing and able to buy 10 (Q1). But if sold at $0.50 per burger (P2), people are willing and able to buy 20 (Q2). and so on and so forth...right?"
from my perspective, MJ beamed like a proud parent...
or maybe he was just glad that i finally am starting to get some of the things he is talking about
-_-
He then went on to explain suppy curve
A graph of the relationship between the price of a good and the amount supplied at different prices. (http://www.economist.com/research/economics/alphabetic.cfm?letter=S#supplycurve)
He didn't draw a graph this time cos i stopped him
(i only need to feel like an idiot once a day)
but in my own head, i visualised a graph with the opposite relationship
so based on 'cheeseburgers',
if selling at $1 per burger, 20 burgers will be supplied. If selling at $0.50 per burger, 10 burgers will be supplied... (or something to that effect)
so...if these 2 graphs are superimposed on each other..
there will be an intersection point
known as Equilibrium, when supply and demand are in balance.
At the equilibrium price, the quantity that buyers are willing to buy exactly matches the quantity that sellers are willing to sell. (http://www.economist.com/research/economics/alphabetic.cfm?letter=E#equilibrium)
Therefore, in terms of "cheeseburgers"...
Supplier willing to make 15 burgers at $0.75 each, and consumers willing and able to pay for 15 burgers at $0.75 each
everyone is happy! supply meets demand!
and with that, my first lesson in economics ended *PHEW*
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
of course, all of the econs students (ex, present, future) are waiting to slaughter me for oversimplifying the graphs and relationships...
but hey!
any lay person out there will be happier with my 'cheeseburger' explanation...
because seriously,
jargon should be reserved for the 'pros'
MJ is really hyped that i am starting to take 1 tiny step in understanding something that is very important and useful to him
me?
i just hope that i dun look like an idiot all the time when he talks about econs...
and now...
it's sunday afternoon...
no more work...
back to my trashy novel :D
PS: i know my graphs doesn't truly reflect the 'cheeseburger' explanation because the gradients of both graphs do not match. But, it was just for representation...not drawn to scale and not possible to unless i waste the rest of my sunday using Paint to come up with perfect graphs.
it's all about perspective, isn't it?
from where i stood before, it was so easy to comment and say things...
not knowing how it was out there, in the battlefield...
until i went in..
and then i realised,
it's ALOT harder than i thought
it's all about mind over body, isn't it?
some things take all the energy out of me...
yet a similar task, fueled by adrenaline, becomes so much easier...
and no matter how fatigued i am,
there is still that little bit of energy left to fight till the end...
it's all about fun and laughter, peace and joy..isn't it?
friendly competition, that's all
having fun, laughing at each other...
basically enjoying the times spent together and forming more happy memories, right?
it's amazing, isn't it?
1 captain's ball game later..
i have all these thoughts...
and also, ALOT ALOT ALOT of aching muscles begging for a massage right now
-_-
i survived...
and i scored a couple of goals :D
good to know that after 11 years, i still have a little bit of ball sense left
but for now...
with all these thoughts...
i shall drag myself to my comfy bed..
and get down to stretching the sore muscles out..
so not looking forward to work tomorrow
~ouchie~
from where i stood before, it was so easy to comment and say things...
not knowing how it was out there, in the battlefield...
until i went in..
and then i realised,
it's ALOT harder than i thought
it's all about mind over body, isn't it?
some things take all the energy out of me...
yet a similar task, fueled by adrenaline, becomes so much easier...
and no matter how fatigued i am,
there is still that little bit of energy left to fight till the end...
it's all about fun and laughter, peace and joy..isn't it?
friendly competition, that's all
having fun, laughing at each other...
basically enjoying the times spent together and forming more happy memories, right?
it's amazing, isn't it?
1 captain's ball game later..
i have all these thoughts...
and also, ALOT ALOT ALOT of aching muscles begging for a massage right now
-_-
i survived...
and i scored a couple of goals :D
good to know that after 11 years, i still have a little bit of ball sense left
but for now...
with all these thoughts...
i shall drag myself to my comfy bed..
and get down to stretching the sore muscles out..
so not looking forward to work tomorrow
~ouchie~
everyone has a past
no matter if you're 1 month or 1 century old.
the moment we cry our first cries on this planet, our stories begin
memories will be laid down, and our past follows us...
until we breathe our last breath...
but not everyone remembers their past...
at least not all of it
like most of us don't recall anything that happened before the age of 3
and some of us can't even recall what we had for lunch yesterday
and then, there're those who are haunted by their past...
who try to release themselves from the clutches of bad memories and experiences
working so hard to walk out of the shadows and starting to trust that the past is truly over
yet each day...each moment is potentially a painful reminder...
and any small resemblance to the past is magnified and amplified...
everyday is a struggle against demons that lives inside...
lastly, some live in the past
reminiscing the 'good old days'...
and wishing to return to that time to experience it again
but they forget to look at the present...and the future...
and forgot to move on with the times..
stuck in a time zone where happiness is derived from memories...
and reality becomes too harsh to live in
we all have a past...
each of us has our own pain, own burdens, own cross to bear...
no one else can feel it like we do...
and so,
don't pretend to know...or assume to understand...
i know i have too many things to let go...
too many shadows to rid
too many wounds to heal
trying...trying hard...
maybe one day, i'll succeed...
be able to look back, but no longer in anger or in tears...
however...
for now...the demons within are too strong...
the war has dragged on for too long
don't force me, don't rush me...
i need to breathe...to recuperate...
before i return to the battlefield again..
and face the demons of my past...
~d.r.a.i.n.e.d.~
no matter if you're 1 month or 1 century old.
the moment we cry our first cries on this planet, our stories begin
memories will be laid down, and our past follows us...
until we breathe our last breath...
but not everyone remembers their past...
at least not all of it
like most of us don't recall anything that happened before the age of 3
and some of us can't even recall what we had for lunch yesterday
and then, there're those who are haunted by their past...
who try to release themselves from the clutches of bad memories and experiences
working so hard to walk out of the shadows and starting to trust that the past is truly over
yet each day...each moment is potentially a painful reminder...
and any small resemblance to the past is magnified and amplified...
everyday is a struggle against demons that lives inside...
lastly, some live in the past
reminiscing the 'good old days'...
and wishing to return to that time to experience it again
but they forget to look at the present...and the future...
and forgot to move on with the times..
stuck in a time zone where happiness is derived from memories...
and reality becomes too harsh to live in
we all have a past...
each of us has our own pain, own burdens, own cross to bear...
no one else can feel it like we do...
and so,
don't pretend to know...or assume to understand...
i know i have too many things to let go...
too many shadows to rid
too many wounds to heal
trying...trying hard...
maybe one day, i'll succeed...
be able to look back, but no longer in anger or in tears...
however...
for now...the demons within are too strong...
the war has dragged on for too long
don't force me, don't rush me...
i need to breathe...to recuperate...
before i return to the battlefield again..
and face the demons of my past...
~d.r.a.i.n.e.d.~
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