1) celebrated MJ's birthday with him for the first time
080808 - only happen once in a lifetime..and i'm honoured to be the one who is celebrating with him :D
2) 'family gathering' with YQ before she left for hk...
this is not a 全家福 cos our pet (MJ) and wife number 4 (HX) is not in the pic. but hey, this is the original family..the 3 "wives" who had no idea they were "married" to yq :P
3) YQ left for HK...
all i can say is that i miss her...much more than i expected...especially when i see photos of our outings together...
sigh..
will be a long time before we'll get to go blading or KTV together..
YQ dearest, please take care of yourself okie? *hugz*
4) went through one week of JCI...
luckily never get called for audit *phew* :D
5) cut my hair to a un-tie-able length since last yr in Uni
eh, i think i look pretty ok with short hair this time round...not the usual wild mane that i get when i cut my hair. and i'm enjoying this hairstyle *muahahaha*
6) knocked out by GA for the first time...
being knocked out by GA is...kind of like feeling yourself dying....consciously losing your consciousness...
as the drug is being infused into my bloodstream, i can feel my brain shutting down and the world starting to spin slowly, hyponotising me into a very very deep sleep..
the kind of sleep which i am not too sure if i'll wake up from...
the anesthesiologist told me to take deep breaths when i first regain consciousness, and not to trash around.
that was scary..the trashing around bit.
i didn't know that people trash around when they wake up from GA!
but he said that it's because some people find it an unpleasant experience to wake up from GA, hence the trashing because they are trying too hard to wake themselves up.
not too sure if i trashed..i think i flail my arms around...but can't be entirely sure.
all i remembered was trying to orientate myself..and these nurses telling me stuff which didn't really register in my head... and this overwhelming drowsiness that kept me just out of consciousness...
when i finally woke up and manage to drink some water,
and when rae and kelvin came to visit me, it was so comforting, i wanted to cry.
scary...really scary. next time i'm going under GA, i'm gonna make sure there's someone waiting for me at my bedside when i open my eyes...
oh, FYI, in case u're wondering why i had to be under GA (general anaesthesia), i was planned for a small operation to remove a cervical lymph node (a.k.a. lump in my neck). but for some weird reason, the lump disappeared when i was knocked out so the surgeon couldn't just cut my neck open to hunt for it. therefore, i was knocked out but didn't get the op done :( then when i am awake, the doc came around to review me and voila! the lump is back!
so, the doc is gonna just observe the lump..see if it gets bigger or just disappear on its own...
that's the whole story for those who wondered why i don't have a wound on my neck...
7) intubated for the first time and woke up with hoarse voice and phelgm stuck in my throat...
now i can fully empathise with those patients who just got extubated and we PTs go in and ask them to cough and clear their phelgm. IT'S SO DIFFICULT LOR! it's like having a blob of sputum stuck somewhere in your voicebox (a.k.a. larynx) and no matter how much u *ahem* or cough or gag, it just doesn't want to come out...and seriously, it hurts!
so, to all the PTs out there, i know we are doing for the patient's own good cos we don't want secertion retention to happen. But, if really cannot expectorate..maybe it's just that it hurts too much to cough...give them a day's rest and try again yeah?
*ahem* so far, i've only managed to clear one small part of the phelgm out. still *ahem-ing* all the time to get the throat cleared.
*AHEM* *AHEM*
8) nua-ing at home after 6 and 7 because voice too hoarse to do KAA (video narration) and too tired to clean my room...
i know i know, the GA effect shouldn't last more than 24 hours.
but i guess the whole fever+lump sprouting+SOB saga in july has depleted my body's stamina.
i still get SOB when i walk too fast...
call it deconditioning..but considering that i've already gone back to work for 2-3 weeks, i thought i'll be more re-conditioned.
still, since the whole GA and no lumpectomy episode, i feel so drained...
can barely keep my eyes open for a few hours.
body itself is actually quite alright..even managed to mop the floor yesterday..
it's keeping myself upright and conscious that is taking too much effort *yawn*
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yes, much has happened over the last 2-3 weeks...
a busy august 2008...
and i foresee more events to come and more ups and downs in my life....
but right now...
all i can think of is that my bed is just 3 steps away from me...
and if only i can just get rid of this blob of sputum stuck in my throat!
*ahem*
~nua-ness~
