CNY eve..
i am nursing a very very sore right wrist (currently supported by a wrist guard)
and a very very drained body

now all i wish for is to lie down and sleep till tmr..

but no no...
still got reunion dinner to go..
and then have to do ironing...
maybe abit of 'grooming' too...

tired....
fatigued...
pain-ing...

midnight is so far away...

~Happy New Year~

http://www.chineseastrologyonline.com/2009/2009Dog.htm

1982 Woof-woof in 2009, year of Moo-moo

Career: Year 2009, there are two Lucky Stars and two Unlucky Star related to career are coming into your life. The signs show the events of disagreement, argument, conflict or resentment will come and bring you trouble. Therefore, you have to pay attention on your words and deeds. You need to focus more on people relationship. As long as you keep your sincere attitude, hardworking spirit and perseverance character, then you should be able to overcome any obstacle, challenge, confrontation and difficulty from your job in 2009.

Money: One Lucky Star shows you have a good money luck in 2009. But your money luck is connected to the career luck. You have career opportunity in 2009, but the career luck is not stable. Autumn is a better time for your career luck, but not the Summer. As long as you can save your job position, then you should have the stable income. Remember that your money luck this year is not the easy money, you need to work hard to earn it.

Love: There is no Love Star or Happy Star coming for Dog people. But there is a Lonely Star appearing in 2009. That means your love relationship wont' be smooth in the year of Cow. If you are a senior, then you have to pay attention on your spouse's health. You need to take your spouse to visit doctor whenever he or she feels uncomfortable. If you are married, you might have more quarrel with your spouse this year. If you are in love, you might be lack of chemistry with your companion. If there is a third person involved, then your relationship will be in trouble. If you are still single, then you might have one or two love opportunities coming to you in the Cow year, but the relationship won't last too long.

Health: Your job responsibility will increase in 2009. You will have more daily tasks in your position and you need more energy and spirit to handle those heavy job. The mental pressure will come together, then you won't have a good sleeping rest. Next, you will be losing your health and have more chances to get sick. Also, the poor relationship in love will affect your emotion and let you feel depressed. This is purely psychological problem. If you can understand that this is not a long term obstacle and learn how to relax yourself, you should be able to solve this problem.

Fortune: Dog people have a fair luck in the year of Cow, since they have Lucky Stars supporting them and Unlucky stars disturbing them. That means you will have some good time and some hard time. Everything won't be as smooth as you expect. But don't use this as a excuse for frustration or despair. You just have to spend more time to reach your goal. To double your efforts today will let you become more competitive when the opportunity comes tomorrow. In the company, you should keep your profile low, stay away from people giving you trouble and do not have any argument with your enemy. In the money area, don't be too greedy and do not have any risky investment. As long as focusing on your work, you will earn your return. For your love, you need more proactive in communication to build and maintain a solid relationship. For your health, you need to look for more time to rest, and then your health will improve.

ok, the English is not the best in this article...
besides, these kind of info..
just read and take note of the 'need to improve' or 'need to beware' parts...
everything else...can ignore bah..

looks like my health ain't gonna be any better this year (the health part has been fairly accurate the past 2 years)
"look for more time to rest"....
easier said than done....

'rest' is a luxury that i cannot afford...

无奈的事，太多太多。
无助的感觉，太多太多。
这一晚，我只想放纵地哭泣，
发泄隐藏已久的无奈与无助。

一首歌的歌词，不停地在脑海里浮现

我知道这样不好，也知道你的爱只能那么少。
我只有不停的要，要到你想逃
..
..
..
..
我不要你的呵护，你的玫瑰，
只要你好好久久爱我一遍。
就算虚荣也好，贪心也好，
哪个女人对爱，不自私，不奢望？

我不要你的承诺，不要你的永远，
只要你真真切切爱我一遍。
就算虚荣也好，贪心也好，
最怕你把沉默当作给我的回答。

我已经不知道自己的要求，是不是太高，太多，太过分。
徘徊在不满与内疚，失望与接受的边缘。

告诉自己，放开吧。
毕竟每个人都有自己的想法，不一样的感情观，即环境的拘束。
可是，就是无法释怀。
总觉得还可以更好，更接近理想境界。
每每有这样的想法，就马上告诉自己不可以太苛求。
但是最近，需求与苛求的界限模糊了。
之前一直尝试不计较的点点滴滴，
现在都是我最想要的一切。

这样的想法，让我很害怕。
我不要做一个野蛮女友，
我试着去体谅，尽力配合。
可是，或许我本性就是个坏女孩。
任性的一面，已经似乎无法控制了。
野蛮，是不好。
可是现在，我只想得到我想要的。

我能不能任性地要求我所想要的？

哪个女人对爱，不自私，不奢望？

累了。
疲倦了。
终于，落泪了。

i've been a very lazy girl...
or rather, i've been a rather busy girl who by nature is lazy one...
hence the lack of update on my blog...

nothing much to update actually...
life is still pretty much the same so far in 2009
except for the fact that i've injured my wrist and taken my first MC for 2009 last friday :(

got quite alot of stuff to blogged about...
but somehow...these days... the motivation to come here and blog is non-existence...

except on a night like this...
when everyone is asleep, the house is quiet and peaceful and i am not that sleepy...
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was supposed to blog about a jap buffet i went last yr on 27 Dec...
never got the time to do it..until tonight...
what to blog about?
the amount of food consumed...
to sum it all up...

Food type Servings
Shashimi 32
Sake sushi 6
spider hand roll 4
salmon skin roll 3
california maki 6
tuna belly maki 6
unagi chips maki 6
green salad 1
mentai tofu salad 2
cucumber with miso 9
edamame 1
chawanmushi 7
yakinuku 3
mixed tempura 3
fried tofu 1
potato coroke 1
shishamo (grilled) 10
yakitori 3
shitake 4
zaru soba 2
soups (miso + kimchi) 3

above are for 3 people...i know it doesn't sound like alot (except for the sashimi)...
but it was ALOT OF FOOD
i felt so stuffed after that..couldn't walk straight and had abit of breathing difficulty
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alot of people has been asking me how did i injure my wrist
well, i really dunno...
my right wrist has been injured back in sec school days from playing badminton...
that time i thought it was just a minor strain/sprain
then when i was a TA at AH, i had a relapse of the same problem...
and the PTs 'diagnosed' it was muscle strain...
it resolved spontaneously so i didn't think much of it...

this time round, the only precipitating factors i can think of are
1) quite a few patients who needed more assistance
2) 1 hour repetitive scrubbing action during spring cleaning
3) assessment of a 'heavy' patient who wasn't all that cooperative

so now, i also dunno if it's a strain, a sprain or combination...
what i know is that i cannot carry anything heavy in my right hand
not even a jug of water :(
and that if i use my right hand too much, it hurts...

sigh..feeling so disabled nowadays...
can't even use chopsticks properly!

i just hope that with the splint (thank you HY :D) and anti-inflammatories + ultrasound
it will heal soon
so i can get back to seeing my 'heavy' patients and not load them on my teammates
so i can eat noodles without making a huge mess
so i can go back to being un-disabled
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uh...
the day's activities finally caught up with me...
can barely keep eyes open...

photos and more anecdotes/thoughts next time...

my bed is calling for me...
*Zzzzzzzz