My bro recently set up a new blog...
http://mrguay.blogspot.com
it's called "Mr Guay's teaching blog"
so the stuff he blogged abt it all related to his job..
teaching
yes, Captain Guay had his pink IC returned to him...
and is now known as Mr Guay...
this is the guy who used to hit my head with my physics notes when i asked him to help me solve physics questions...
and usually followed by
"自己不会想啊？我以前没有人可以问，也是自己做。"
and now..
he is part of the team 'moulding the future of singapore'
-_-
but...
reading his new blog...
make me feel like he has resort to less violent/insulting ways of teaching the young ones...
or at least..
now he use more of a 'military' approach..
like doing push-ups to motivate his students to do better at a robot competition...
he had an entry about "education stress"..
and in this entry..a paragraph goes like this..
"Firstly, having survived 16 gruelling years of Singapore education, I don't find it stressful at all. Seriously. And it's not that I have low expectations! While it's true my parents/relatives never place any high expectations on me, I do have high expectations of myself (and my sister, whom may have felt a bit to live up to her brother's name but I digress)."
now...i have to agree and disagree with the line in bold...
agree because...
having followed my brother's footsteps from primary to JC...
even to the point of joining NCC even though dance was my real interest...
living up to his name was definitely one of the stressors
not only to do as well as he does academically
but to be as nice a person as him is very hard..
cos Mr Guay is just...very very nice..
and Miss Ni..well...not very nice person to be around with sometimes...
but, i disagree because...
i feel proud to be his sister..
having someone to look up to makes me feel safe...
having him achieving ahead of me makes me wanna work harder so i can be on par with him...
and i guess i did manage to be on par with him academic wise..
personality wise..
i think it's mission:impossible
he's Mr Nice Guy
and i am Miss Petty girl...
too far apart..
nonetheless, i agree with him that education in singapore is not that stressful...
perhaps because our parents really didn't add any pressure to us..
it was always 尽力就好
the freedom given to us gave us the space to study at our own pace..
and also instill a sense of responsibilty..
that we are responsible for our own achievements...
my bro probably achieved alot more than i did...
he's an all rounder..
studies, relationships, musical talent, computor skills, general knowledge, sports....
i am more or less the typical geek
study, work...........ermm...no more... i think...
nonetheless...
he is my brother..
so his achievements make me proud...
i've stopped being sad that my brother is a better person than i am...
besides..
with a nasty sister like me...
my brother has alot of chance to practise being nice..
which is probably why he is so nice...
anyway...
from the tags left on his new blog..
i think his students love him :)
and i hope..
he'll be alot happier with this new job
哥哥，加油！
dinner with es and wing (and joe and long-ge) last night..
fun?
yes...except i was probably bright enough to light up the whole of singapore...
2 couples and a single gal..just ain't the right combi sometimes...
but...
i am so glad i met them for dinner..
because...
a phone call after dinner from melb...
had the 3 of us squealing and 2 of them crying in a corner of marina sq (right outside the food places...)
it was joy...
and alot alot alot of shock and disbelief...
and a state of confusion+surreality....
it was...
alot of emotions all rolled into one...
it was...worrying if can take leave..and getting upset if cannot take leave...
the news...
can't be announced on my blog...
but after finally calming down a teensy bit...
i just had to put up these photos..
because...
suddenly...
i really miss the times we had together...
if things go well...
i'll be able to take photos with germ again very soon...
and it will be very special photos indeed
miss you lots, ex-housie!
fun?
yes...except i was probably bright enough to light up the whole of singapore...
2 couples and a single gal..just ain't the right combi sometimes...
but...
i am so glad i met them for dinner..
because...
a phone call after dinner from melb...
had the 3 of us squealing and 2 of them crying in a corner of marina sq (right outside the food places...)
it was joy...
and alot alot alot of shock and disbelief...
and a state of confusion+surreality....
it was...
alot of emotions all rolled into one...
it was...worrying if can take leave..and getting upset if cannot take leave...
the news...
can't be announced on my blog...
but after finally calming down a teensy bit...
i just had to put up these photos..
because...
suddenly...
i really miss the times we had together...
if things go well...
i'll be able to take photos with germ again very soon...
and it will be very special photos indeed
miss you lots, ex-housie!
i've had a discussion with a friend many many times...
whether a blog is the same as a diary.
my stand is always the same...
a blog is public...
and so personal thoughts...feelings...and so on...
should be kept in a diary, not a blog...
not so long ago, i read an entry on a blog...
the blogger was very angry...and probably was hurt by somebody...
and an entry full of anger (and i would say hatred) was posted on the blog...
furthermore, it wasn't an annoymous entry...
in my opinion, i thought it was uncalled for...
but, i also understand that the blog belongs to that person...
perhaps by blogging about it, the blogger will feel better...
because
more often than not, i admit i also have the urge to rant..
and i mean serious ranting...not just mindless complaining...
but i try to hold back as much as i can...
because, i dun wish to abuse the space i have on this cyberworld...
and i guess some thoughts/feelings are just not supposed to be announced...
to everyone and anyone...
to be completely honest...i think i was just trying to run away
run away from the fear of showing how i really feel
the fear of facing the reason behind how i feel...
like how i am so afraid of confrontations...i avoid them...
but keeping the feelings inside eats me alive...and so, the urge to blog abt it becomes overwhelming..
subconsciously also hoping that whoever made me feel sad/angry/fustrated/upset will happpen to read the entry...
looking back at the entries i wrote...
a few of which were published..and then deleted...
because in the moment, i wrote it to make myself feel better...
only to regret it later...cos i end up hurting someone i care about...
it could be a moment of childishness...pure bull-headedness...
anger-induced altered mental state...
whatever the reason...
the need to vent is sometimes too much to bear...
times like that...
it's so hard to just swallow all the emotions..
and even harder to find someone to really listen...
at times like these...
i end up blogging abt stuff which i wouldn't if i am less agitated...
and after at times like these...
i often wonder if my blog is helping me..
or just giving myself an excuse to be rude and inconsiderate...
perhaps, i can say that my blog is like a mirror
which i keep forgetting to clean...
everytime i look at it,i see an unclear image of myself...
blurred...covered in dust...
sometimes i spend so much time organizing my thoughts to blog it...
trying to make it sound not too harsh, not too rude, not too personal...
and as annoymous as possible...
perhaps that's why the image of myself is so blurred...
because what i've blogged..
is no longer what i really thought or felt...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
falling sick does make one more reflective...
and the helplessness and loneliness that came with being sick...
makes one think way too much...
and feel way too much...
whether a blog is the same as a diary.
my stand is always the same...
a blog is public...
and so personal thoughts...feelings...and so on...
should be kept in a diary, not a blog...
not so long ago, i read an entry on a blog...
the blogger was very angry...and probably was hurt by somebody...
and an entry full of anger (and i would say hatred) was posted on the blog...
furthermore, it wasn't an annoymous entry...
in my opinion, i thought it was uncalled for...
but, i also understand that the blog belongs to that person...
perhaps by blogging about it, the blogger will feel better...
because
more often than not, i admit i also have the urge to rant..
and i mean serious ranting...not just mindless complaining...
but i try to hold back as much as i can...
because, i dun wish to abuse the space i have on this cyberworld...
and i guess some thoughts/feelings are just not supposed to be announced...
to everyone and anyone...
to be completely honest...i think i was just trying to run away
run away from the fear of showing how i really feel
the fear of facing the reason behind how i feel...
like how i am so afraid of confrontations...i avoid them...
but keeping the feelings inside eats me alive...and so, the urge to blog abt it becomes overwhelming..
subconsciously also hoping that whoever made me feel sad/angry/fustrated/upset will happpen to read the entry...
looking back at the entries i wrote...
a few of which were published..and then deleted...
because in the moment, i wrote it to make myself feel better...
only to regret it later...cos i end up hurting someone i care about...
it could be a moment of childishness...pure bull-headedness...
anger-induced altered mental state...
whatever the reason...
the need to vent is sometimes too much to bear...
times like that...
it's so hard to just swallow all the emotions..
and even harder to find someone to really listen...
at times like these...
i end up blogging abt stuff which i wouldn't if i am less agitated...
and after at times like these...
i often wonder if my blog is helping me..
or just giving myself an excuse to be rude and inconsiderate...
perhaps, i can say that my blog is like a mirror
which i keep forgetting to clean...
everytime i look at it,i see an unclear image of myself...
blurred...covered in dust...
sometimes i spend so much time organizing my thoughts to blog it...
trying to make it sound not too harsh, not too rude, not too personal...
and as annoymous as possible...
perhaps that's why the image of myself is so blurred...
because what i've blogged..
is no longer what i really thought or felt...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
falling sick does make one more reflective...
and the helplessness and loneliness that came with being sick...
makes one think way too much...
and feel way too much...
when one is sick..
one looks for someone else to offer something...
be it comfort...
advice...
or just simply a cup of warm water...
just so...
one can feel better...
a pat on the back...
a 'are u feeling better?'
a '加油!'
a concerned look...
anything..really...
to know that someone does care...
and so, while one was feeling indignant abt the lack of common sense
and flexibility in handling illnesses from certain people...
one is really grateful for all the encouragement and concern from everyone else...
even though one feels really sick now...
and one knows MC is not a possibility...
the little words of care and concern..
and the few pats on the back and smiles to cheer one up..
really helped to make one feel less clogged and more alive....
one will try to get better...
and stay healthy....
one has just taken something for the clogged nose..
and one is feeling tired and drowsy
and one really miss nobody when one is sick...
because...
nobody is so huggable...
and one really needs a hug now...
one looks for someone else to offer something...
be it comfort...
advice...
or just simply a cup of warm water...
just so...
one can feel better...
a pat on the back...
a 'are u feeling better?'
a '加油!'
a concerned look...
anything..really...
to know that someone does care...
and so, while one was feeling indignant abt the lack of common sense
and flexibility in handling illnesses from certain people...
one is really grateful for all the encouragement and concern from everyone else...
even though one feels really sick now...
and one knows MC is not a possibility...
the little words of care and concern..
and the few pats on the back and smiles to cheer one up..
really helped to make one feel less clogged and more alive....
one will try to get better...
and stay healthy....
one has just taken something for the clogged nose..
and one is feeling tired and drowsy
and one really miss nobody when one is sick...
because...
nobody is so huggable...
and one really needs a hug now...
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