Am I supposed to be so jittery just barely a week into engagement?

2 consecutive nights, I woke up in the middle of the night.
And no, it is not I-need-to-pee-no-choice-but-to-get-up kind of waking up...
It's the bolt-upright-for-no-reason-whatsoever kind of waking up...
followed by toss-and-turn-and flip-and-flop kind of insomnia...

So although I tuck myself into bed at midnight, I find myself sitting up and wide awake at like 4am
And my brain + body refused to go back to proper sleep after that...
which explains why I am blogging at 741am on a Saturday!

Thoughts are zooming around so fast in my head, I can't remember what I am thinking about...
And then suddenly, I'll break into cold sweat...have palpitations and it'll take alot of concentration to get myself back into semi-conscious state
The thoughts will then come zooming back and the cycle repeats..

The last time I am this nervous, I was losing sleep over my final clinical exam in Melbourne...

So...is this like a final clinical exam for my singlehood...hence I am such a nervous wreck?

~unrested+++~

I'm engaged...
It still feels weird to say it..or type it...
the 'silly-grin-blush-blush' kind of weird
^_^

okie...this is so NOT what had happened...just that we didn't get to take a pic of the actual thing so we decided to do a 'proper' one =p

Thank you deardear...
for putting in so much effort...
and bearing the pain of parting the money...
The ring is exactly the way I've visualize my engagement ring to be *muakz*

原来，幸福是那么地脆弱，是那么地无常。

在一夜之间，原本以为事情还有转机的，变成了无法挽回的幻灭。

这样的事发生后，我要用怎样的心情去面对以后？

为何要让事情走到这样的地步。

忍一时，风平浪静。

忍不了，是人之常情。

但是否忍在不住的当下，可以留点余地给别人？

别人的受伤与不开心，真的那么微不足道吗？

退一步，海阔天空。
到了这样的局面，还有路可退吗？
 
要退多少，才可以把伤害降到最低？
 
要退多远，才可以置身事外？
 
一夜未眠的我，双眼已经肿到不行了，但眼泪依然夺眶而出。
 
是不是当眼泪不再留，我才真的看开了？
 
这样的伤，泪水像是消毒剂。
 
越多泪，越痛。
 
只希望消毒后，泪停后，痛也会停止。
 
而伤口结疤后，不会再痛，可是一切已经面目全非。
 
当初的幸福，都是假象。
 
也因为当初很幸福，所以现在特别痛。
 
~疗伤中，请勿打扰。谢谢~