almost everyone knows i am a freak...
why?
cos unlike the millions and billions of people out there who can't say 'no' to cakes and chocolates,
i not only can say 'no', i say 'i dun like sweet stuff..except ice cream'
now, i am an even bigger freak...
well, bigger freak among the female species...
cos i HATE shopping..
yes, i am using the word HATE
it's time consuming, it hurts your feet (and your bank account)...
and more often than not, you can't get what you want to buy..
but end up buying all the other stuff that you did not plan to buy...
i have NO IDEA what people like about shopping..
or 'retail therapy'...
it's not therapeutic....
not for me anyway..
i feel like a form of torture..
maybe because when i have to go shopping, i actually have a mission to accomplish..
like these past 2-3 few days, i have been shopping almost everyday...
looking a dress that will fit me and not burn a gigantic hole in my pocket...
so far...i've got 2 'okay' dresses which i am not too happy about
and which my mum has proclaim as 'normal lor'...
AND...
my feet is hurting right now...i've spent more money in 3 days than i did for the last 1 month...and i dun feel 'therapized' at all
:(
now, i still need to continue to search for a pair of 'okay' shoes to go with my 'normal lor' dresses...
and also to start planning what to pack for my trip...
6 more days...
the trouble i am going into getting this dress, people would think i am going over to attend some special function...
but nope..no function...
just a dinner with a friend...
it better be worth it..
or else...
'someone' would get it from me...
10 more days....
10 days later, at this time...
i'll be on the plane...
10 days later,
i'll be pager-free for 2 weeks...2 weeks...2 weeks
right now...
it's stress...stress...stress...
too much work...
too many things to buy...
too little money...
too little time...
but my stress is probably insignificant compared to what the 4th years are going through right now..
one year ago...
i would be holed up in my room in apartment 27, with F.R.I.E.N.D.S. or JC playing in the background, trying to cram all the info i need into my hopelessly-easily-distracted-brain...while at the same time lamenting about the stupid bedbrakes -_-
been there..done that...
i know how they are all feeling...
the 'i'm so sick of studying i just wanna chill and not do anything' feeling...
right now, i have the 'i'm so sick of working i just wanna quit' feeling...
to all the 4th years:
HANG IN THERE!! it'll all be over in the blink of an eye..no, i am not trying to console any of u. next week at this time, it'll hit u that u've reach almost the end of your physio course...at the moment, study hard...rest well...and all the very best!! 加油！！
10 days later, at this time...
i'll be on the plane...
10 days later,
i'll be pager-free for 2 weeks...2 weeks...2 weeks
right now...
it's stress...stress...stress...
too much work...
too many things to buy...
too little money...
too little time...
but my stress is probably insignificant compared to what the 4th years are going through right now..
one year ago...
i would be holed up in my room in apartment 27, with F.R.I.E.N.D.S. or JC playing in the background, trying to cram all the info i need into my hopelessly-easily-distracted-brain...while at the same time lamenting about the stupid bedbrakes -_-
been there..done that...
i know how they are all feeling...
the 'i'm so sick of studying i just wanna chill and not do anything' feeling...
right now, i have the 'i'm so sick of working i just wanna quit' feeling...
to all the 4th years:
HANG IN THERE!! it'll all be over in the blink of an eye..no, i am not trying to console any of u. next week at this time, it'll hit u that u've reach almost the end of your physio course...at the moment, study hard...rest well...and all the very best!! 加油！！
11.33pm
strangely peaceful house...
as i sit here and listen to a soothing song...
i find myself travelling back to many years ago...
when i used to think that humans change for the better...
if you give them a chance..or rather, if you keep giving them chances...
the past 2 months...
it doesn't feel like i am coming home after work
on the surface, things look fine...
but it is not...
and some of us choose to ignore..
some of us choose to take it out on others...
and some of us...
just let it happen and try not to get affected...
just 2 more weeks...
then i can escape from this madness for 14 days...
away and hopefully, temporarily forget...
a walk along the yarra...
chilling out in starbucks...
salsa-ing or cheong-K-ing...
fancy dinner or bumming in front of tv...
anything but facing this at home...
an obligation to stay and brace through...
no choice...
can't even choose to run away and escape...
a responsibility i dun wish to take...
a task that's so impossible to accomplish...
a debt i have to pay...
karma...
i must have not done enough good deeds...
or...
someone must have done me too huge a favour some lifetime(s) ago..
and now...
i have to pay...
turn left..turn right..
look up...look around..
me, jay chou and my toshiba..
a friend online...and the many faces smiling at me from the photos around...
if i just ignore the sleeping form in the living room...
and pretend that daylight will never come..
i might actually feel contented...
but he lies there...
waiting...
when daybreak comes (or maybe even before dawn)..
the cycle would repeat...
again..and again...and again..
day after day...year after year...
i wish daylight will never come..
i wish i'll never wake up once i am asleep...
i wish it can be like this...
me, jay chou, toshiba and msn...
and this peace...
no fighting..no shouting...
no more tears...no more anger..no more grief...
strangely peaceful house...
as i sit here and listen to a soothing song...
i find myself travelling back to many years ago...
when i used to think that humans change for the better...
if you give them a chance..or rather, if you keep giving them chances...
the past 2 months...
it doesn't feel like i am coming home after work
on the surface, things look fine...
but it is not...
and some of us choose to ignore..
some of us choose to take it out on others...
and some of us...
just let it happen and try not to get affected...
just 2 more weeks...
then i can escape from this madness for 14 days...
away and hopefully, temporarily forget...
a walk along the yarra...
chilling out in starbucks...
salsa-ing or cheong-K-ing...
fancy dinner or bumming in front of tv...
anything but facing this at home...
an obligation to stay and brace through...
no choice...
can't even choose to run away and escape...
a responsibility i dun wish to take...
a task that's so impossible to accomplish...
a debt i have to pay...
karma...
i must have not done enough good deeds...
or...
someone must have done me too huge a favour some lifetime(s) ago..
and now...
i have to pay...
turn left..turn right..
look up...look around..
me, jay chou and my toshiba..
a friend online...and the many faces smiling at me from the photos around...
if i just ignore the sleeping form in the living room...
and pretend that daylight will never come..
i might actually feel contented...
but he lies there...
waiting...
when daybreak comes (or maybe even before dawn)..
the cycle would repeat...
again..and again...and again..
day after day...year after year...
i wish daylight will never come..
i wish i'll never wake up once i am asleep...
i wish it can be like this...
me, jay chou, toshiba and msn...
and this peace...
no fighting..no shouting...
no more tears...no more anger..no more grief...
I got a tiny aquarium on my table!
okie...i had it for like 2 weeks liaoz..but my camera was MIA and so, can only take pics today...
the two big 'rocks' are from adelaide..and inside the aquarium got a tiny glass containing rocks i collected from barcelona (ooh yeah, rocks washed up from the meditarranean)..this time i go to melb, will collect some rocks from melbourne :P
from the top...
two of my fishies...they are brothers..and they fight..sometimes...
but my aquarium only has tiny fishies...the biggest ones are 2 guppy-like fish...why guppy like? cos my mum cross-breed guppies with some fish she caught in the drain (a.k.a. 垄沟鱼)...the other tiny baby fish are still not grown up enough to see what breed they are...also got some snails...and some plants...simple but provides a simple form of relaxation when i look at the fishies swimming around...
maybe i shld start having more nature in my room...just to brighten up my life a bit bit more
okie...i had it for like 2 weeks liaoz..but my camera was MIA and so, can only take pics today...
the two big 'rocks' are from adelaide..and inside the aquarium got a tiny glass containing rocks i collected from barcelona (ooh yeah, rocks washed up from the meditarranean)..this time i go to melb, will collect some rocks from melbourne :P
from the top...
two of my fishies...they are brothers..and they fight..sometimes...
but my aquarium only has tiny fishies...the biggest ones are 2 guppy-like fish...why guppy like? cos my mum cross-breed guppies with some fish she caught in the drain (a.k.a. 垄沟鱼)...the other tiny baby fish are still not grown up enough to see what breed they are...also got some snails...and some plants...simple but provides a simple form of relaxation when i look at the fishies swimming around...
maybe i shld start having more nature in my room...just to brighten up my life a bit bit more
yyyyyaaaaaayyyyyyy!!!
my comp no longer needs 45 mins to boot up...
after 3 formatting and 4 uninstall/reinstallation of winXP...
my laptop is working fine now
*phew*
utmost gratitude to my brother...
who had to put up with my yakking/complaining/whining during this 1 month (or maybe i shld say for the past 25 years of his life...)
THANK YOU GOR GOR!!
now,
i need to lie down and rest my aching neck/head
*argh*
my comp no longer needs 45 mins to boot up...
after 3 formatting and 4 uninstall/reinstallation of winXP...
my laptop is working fine now
*phew*
utmost gratitude to my brother...
who had to put up with my yakking/complaining/whining during this 1 month (or maybe i shld say for the past 25 years of his life...)
THANK YOU GOR GOR!!
now,
i need to lie down and rest my aching neck/head
*argh*
想念你的歌
是否曾经后悔过 那时候负气说走 就走
是否偶尔想过我 所以埋怨我 没打听你的下落
逞强常常让人无法负荷
躲起来边哭边说I MISS YOU
还舍不得把你封锁
星光闪烁如何拥有
站在远方才看见星空的轮廓
虽然有时候会寂寞
墙上时钟停格
你说放开手才会快乐
用悲伤的脉搏写成想念你的歌
该怎么才能让你懂呢 谁对谁错已经模糊了 忘记了
我们都处理得有点笨拙 毕竟从来没有像 这一次如此爱过
想念常让我无法负荷
常常只有一个念头I MISS YOU
我的爱情从来没有死掉过
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也许因为我从来没有放手，所以当我知道了你的一些消息，我依然感到受伤了。
也许我们的那一段短暂的回忆，对你只是蜻蜓点水，过眼云烟；
对我却成为了一种枷锁，一种束缚，把我牢牢地绑在对你地思念中，锁在和你的回忆里。
你是没有遗憾的走了，而我却在原地停留了那么久......
你没有回头看一看吗？
你的背影，离我越来越远；但你对我的点点滴滴，却清晰如昔日。
那种痛，你也就干脆不闻不问了。
难道真的那么潇洒吗？
如果你至少把我当朋友，一句问候，也不舍得吗？
‘曾经拥有’的，连友谊都不如？
你这样的态度，距我于千里之外，我也罢了。
让我好难过的是你既然连朋友都不做，当初为何要让我误会？
为何你要对我那么好，然后又音讯全无?
你真的问心无愧?
我真的看错了。
那么冷酷的你，给我浇了一身的冰水，也让我终于明白了。
好恐怖的一个你，好无情的一个你。
你找到了你的幸福，我为你庆幸。
请珍惜她，不要让那冷酷，恐怖，无情的一面再伤害另一个人了。
这首歌，我为你唱了一遍。
我不否认i miss you，但我可以保证，我再也不会想你了。
因为你而掉的眼泪，够多了。
因为你而强忍着的痛楚，够深了。
结束吧。
我要如何忘记你，还真的是个难题。
但我一定要做到。
如果你可以连友谊都不顾，那么在我决心忘了你之前，
只剩下一句话：
“朋友，请多珍重。”
officially in the # team now...
# = fracture/ortho (i.e. orthopaedic)
dealing little old ladies with fractured hips...
and some confused old uncles who wants me to bring him to the window and 'bai bai, seow gim zua (burn joss papers)...
and then, to CDC1 (communicable disease centre 1) in the afternoon...
where i get to bring my patients to walk in the outdoors...
and sit under the trees, listening to birds chirping away...
peaceful...but the weather spoils half the fun...
weather has been BLEAH!!!
singapore is like being plonked in the midst of a burning furnace...
hot, smoky and oh, the smell of the haze!!!!
it's like living in hypoxic environment...
and my eyes are giving me trouble this morning..
itchy, red and watery...argh...
right now, the PSI is 128!!
the air looks so dirty, i decided to cancel my cycling trip...
being stuck at home due to lousy air is such a cold blanket...
but considering that my eyes are reacting this much indoors..
dun think going outdoors is advisable...
phanton's coming to singapore!!
i am determined to watch it...
couple of my colleagues are going...
but knowing them...
i'll probably get 'put aeroplane' again...
well...
worse come to worse, i shall go myself...
back to my yu tian tu long ji :P
# = fracture/ortho (i.e. orthopaedic)
dealing little old ladies with fractured hips...
and some confused old uncles who wants me to bring him to the window and 'bai bai, seow gim zua (burn joss papers)...
and then, to CDC1 (communicable disease centre 1) in the afternoon...
where i get to bring my patients to walk in the outdoors...
and sit under the trees, listening to birds chirping away...
peaceful...but the weather spoils half the fun...
weather has been BLEAH!!!
singapore is like being plonked in the midst of a burning furnace...
hot, smoky and oh, the smell of the haze!!!!
it's like living in hypoxic environment...
and my eyes are giving me trouble this morning..
itchy, red and watery...argh...
right now, the PSI is 128!!
the air looks so dirty, i decided to cancel my cycling trip...
being stuck at home due to lousy air is such a cold blanket...
but considering that my eyes are reacting this much indoors..
dun think going outdoors is advisable...
phanton's coming to singapore!!
i am determined to watch it...
couple of my colleagues are going...
but knowing them...
i'll probably get 'put aeroplane' again...
well...
worse come to worse, i shall go myself...
back to my yu tian tu long ji :P
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