CPE is over!!!
YAYYYYY!!
*dancing around*
feels so good to know i dun have things due...in the next couple of weeks...
*siiggghhhh*

i'm totally hooked on the 7pm Channel U show...
partly cos it's hilarious..
partly cos it's better than the hongkong show on Channel 8
MOSTLY cos of the male lead...
he is...in my humble opinion...
drop-dead, hyperventilate, scream-your-lungs-out gorgeous
with a body to die for...
*drooling*




some ppl will call him a pretty boy...
which was what i thot at first too...
but...
with time...let's just say my love for him grew...ALOT

the last time i am this gaga over a guy was when i fell in love with Jay
and now, i am rushing home from work to catch the show...
first thing i reach home is to switch on the tv....
no matter how much CPE i had left to do (yesterday)
i made sure i watched the whole one hour..
one hour is too short!!
i want more of him!!!!!

and..
it's good to have someone to think about..
occupies my mind so i dun think too much abt other things...

hmm..i think i'm gonna invest in the dvd/vcd for this series..haha
then i can see him over..and over..and over again..
just like how i used to watch Jay mtvs..over and over and over again...

i'm "in love"...accidentally...

read the latest issue of i-weekly last night..
apparently this year is gonna be a better yr for the doggies
doggies=ppl born in yr of dogs
and so, out of curiosity+boredom
i thot i'll surf the Net to find out more...

http://www.jmine.com/chinese_horoscope2007.htm#Dog07



1922, 1934, 1946, 1958, 1970, 1982, 1994, 2006

General
This year is better than 2006. Life starts to stabilize. (yay!) The social aspect is very good (oooooh...) this year. You can spend more time in building rapport and knowing people who can help you. You will have lots of fun this year. (:D) For those who are not in a relationship, there is also a strong sign that you will meet the right person this year. There are signs of marriage and getting attached. (really?!)


Career
Good year in terms of career. You will enjoy working in teams. (good,cos i'm always working in teams...) You can easily get by without really needing to work as there are many people volunteering to do your work for you. (MUAHAHAHAHA!) If you are in sales, this is a good year for you. Though many enjoy doing business with you, your communication skills and persistency will have the final say of whether are you able to clinch the deal.

Wealth
Good year for wealth. A word of caution is not to indulge in over-spending. (uh oh...there goes my hope of buying a car...) Though you have a good year for wealth, your stream of wealth is not limitless. Do not over-spend. Take this year to earn money and keep it. (mm..sounds like a good idea...)


Relationship
If you are attached or married, you will find the love grow stronger this year. If you are single, there is a great possibility that you will find new love this year. (haiz..y can't vday be in dec so i have more time to meet my new love?)Go out and start to meet new people or spend more time with friends. You never know where the chemistry will strike.

Health
Bad. Be careful in terms of health this year. You are more prone to falling ill (uh oh...maybe my new love can then take care of me :P) this year. Be careful of food poisoning. (wah liew...that's one of the worst kind of falling-ill :S) While you are enjoying extensive social activities, be careful in what you eat and where you eat. If you fall ill, you will take a longer period to recover. (hmm..it's happening already. still coughing from my indian-bug)

People
You do not need to take special attention. This year, people simply love you. (awww!! how nice!) Remember not to push your luck, but embrace it.

Action
Put a metallic gourd in your health sector. (what on earth is a metallic gourd? and where's my health sector??) Put ingots or metallic pagoda in your wealth area. If you are doing business, put a three-legged frog in your wealth sector. Put a metallic horse in your Gui Ren position.


Hmmm....sounds like a pretty good year...
so this year...
i have to

1) go out more
2) choose places with good hygiene to eat at
3) not shop too much
4) be nice to everyone

according to i-weekly, i must make use of this year to recover lost opportunities last year. cos last yr was a bad yr for many things, alot of things were left undone...

so this year, i also must
1) sort out my room
2) overhaul my wardrobe (without too much shoppping)
3) start saving up seriously for a car + new laptop
4) go learn something new... music probably
5) start to exercise regularly....seriously regularly

time to get organised and sort out my messy life...
ermm...
after this coming friday...
when i'm done with the ^$%@*&#* CPE
-_-

argh..
back to powerpoint-ing...

it's the last day of my year...
my year = year of the dog...
i'm 2.5 hours away from turning 26 on the lunar calender...

AHHHHH!!
26!!!

omg...

oh well...everyone grows old...
so, it's no big deal...
i guess...

today's work was...
Madness.
everytime i come out from a cubicle after seeing one patient
the nurse tells me another new referral...
after 4 hours and 8 patients later..
i had 5 more to go..
and it's CNY eve!
i was in a bad bad mood..
like seriously BAD mood
face all black...
the end of my year isn't going the way i want it to..
and i am not happy

but...
i manage to get home by 5pm..
many thanks to soakyee and rachel for helping me to clear my load..
and also to all the nurses who had to put up with my black face
even though none of them would read this blog...
i just have to say thank you..

and i also want to say sorry to my mum for snapping at her yesterday...
i made amends by ironing her new clothes just now...
but i still feel bad...
sometimes...
i get so much crap at work..that i just lose control and snap at people at home..
i'm such a lousy person..
no wonder my parents like my brother better..
can't blame them..he is a much nicer person than i am...

and no wonder i am still single...
this might be my retribution...
for snapping at people in my younger days...
punishment is to ensure i am single so that i have no one to snap at when i am old and alone..

but..i have plans..
i'll make sure i book a place in a nice nursing home...
and i have to make sure i become happily demented, remains mobile till the day i die..
so that i dun end up contracted and bed bound with pressure sores that goes to my bone *ouch*

at least...i have some sort of a plan...

i'm sleepy..
and i have 2h and 15 mins to go to 12MN
守岁啊。
plans for mahjong to keep all 4 of us awake is down the drain..
cos...
sigh..better not talk abt it..
the major factor which ruined my mood the most in the past one week...

anyway...
it's tv time...

“猪”大家∶
新年快乐，身体健康，财运连连，”猪”事顺心！

bye bye doggie...
hello piggie!

u know the feeling u get when u really want to not care but deep inside u really do care?

like how i want myself to not care when my first hamster died...
but part of me died inside with her cos she's such a sweetie (even though she bites)
or how i want myself to not care when so-and-so doesn't reply to my email...
but part of me inside cried every time i dun see so-and-so's email...
or..how i want to not care that my dad is so impossible to live with...
but anger boils up everytime he comes into my vision...

it's called denial..i think...

i'm denying all these things which i really care about...
just so...
i dun feel the pain of all of these...things...

stupid v day..
i hate this day!
it's supposed to be just another day...
that's what i want myself to think..
so i dun care..
but deep inside..
i'm sad...
very very sad...
it's not abt having a bf...or having someone ask me out..
spending it alone is fine...
but because someone set 14 feb to be v-day..
on this day, my brain goes overactive...
and i think..
way too much for my own good..

so if that someone set..say 17 april to be v day, u'll find gretel sulking in front of her comp..

i dun want to care..
i really really DON'T WANT TO CARE...

but....
i do care...
i do care that my parents can't communicate with each other
and i do miss...
i miss having someone to hold my hand...
and i do feel sad...
and lonely...

this is a stupid day
everyday shld be v day for the couples..
y do they need one special day for themselves..
and make the rest of the non-couples want to be part of a couple!?

i'm cranky...
and i'm at the verge of tears...

i hate this day

i am in pain..
not excruciating pain..
but enough pain to make me hobble around...
and enough pain to make me wanna rant...

i have a love-hate relationship with the toilets in my house...
love'em...
because, well...can't do without them right?
hate'em?
because it takes B***** 5 hours to clean them!!!
freaking 5 hours lor!!!
my whole sunday is gone!
*sob*
and not to mention my pain is cos of cleaning the toilets!
*SOB SOB SOB*
my back hurts..
i have low back pain!
i transfer heavy patients, assist patients to walk and do all sorts of exercises for one year
and usually just have a slightly achy back from overuse
and now?
i get a low back pain from cleaning toilets
-_-
*cue sound effect*
KUA KUA KUA.....


crap lah
i also dunno if it's low back pain or SIJ..
too low to be back..
but i dun get any pain when i try the provocative tests for SIJ

i need a physio...
*cue sound effect*
KUA KUA KUA

and my CPE is like...1% completed
*cue sound effect*
KUA KUA KUA KUA KUA KUA!

this whole day is full of KUA KUA KUA

sigh
now i am in too much pain to sit and do my CPE
and too hungry to do anything else but sit and do my CPE
how ironic...

i want dinner...
and a salonpas medicated plaster on my back...
and maybe, just maybe...
some mango ice cream later to cheer myself up...

at least..
i have 2 sparkling toilets to admire at...

KUA KUA KUA....

somehow...
i just feel like blogging...
even though i really should stop wasting time on unimportant and un-urgent stuff like blogging (a quadrant IV activity..ppl who went to 7 habits will know)
cos my presentation is due in 2.75 weeks...
and so far, i've been downloading articles...reading articles...and getting nowhere...

i'm stressed...
and blogging helps to relieve my stress..
cos i get to whine...

watever...

right now..
i am just so stuffed from my late dinner...
and so achy from hip-hop
yes, i've started learning hip-hop
and the one thing i learnt so far?
i am not hip...and i can't really groove..
dun have the 'seh'...not enough attitude...
somehow when the instructress does the moves, she looks cool...
when i do it, i look somewhat like a chicken cross with a chinese dancer...
sigh...

hormones acting up again..
sianz!!!
stressed!!!

omg...

can someone really nice please buy me a nice valentine's day gift?
i hate this day..
even though it is just a day ppl commercialise to earn money..
even though it shld be just like any other day..
i hate it..
all these couples...
argh!

darn...
i'm almost back to my 'idunhaveabfandiamlonelyandsad' phase...

*deep breath*
*pppfffftttt*
okie..
no more whining abt guys..
who needs them anyway?
they grow old and become a) cranky b) rude c)useless or d)all of the above

at least...
the living examples i see are like that...
hmph!
why am i seeing so many extended-male-menopause men???

someone really nice (prefably a guy) should prove me wrong..
that guys can grow old gracefully..
not dis-gracefully...

i'm blabbering..
it's a sign of sleep deprivation+stress..
and a sign that i shld get going on my CPE
and stop procrastinating!

i have a clean room...
from the wardrobe to my bed frame
from the windows to my table
everything is now spick and span...
ermm..except my bedsheets which is due to be changed next week...

the windows...were a nightmare...
4 hours on sat...
up and down from the plastic stool at least 40 times...
to clean 8 pieces of window panes, badly in need of a good clean and polish...
i have pictorial evidence...

before - note the whitish stuff over the glass panes...


after - TADAH! no photoshop, no change in camera settings...just pure hard labour by Miss Ni

i'm proud of myself :)

but my muscles are not too happy with me though...
*ouch*

and i have new additions to my room as well..
a new plastic to cover my table...
a new pic of mummy and me...
a new arrangement of ornaments on my book shelf...
and...
a new tiny prawn in my aquarium! :D

but the bad news is after 2 aquariums (FYI there's 4 in my house) has been cleaned by my mummy,
the fishies started dying in mass numbers...
from 19 in my tank...
down to 5!!!!
4 adults and 1 baby fishie left...
luckily my new prawn survived :D

then today, while i was staring at my tank during a break from cleaning my room,
i found my prawn belly-up!

upon closer scrutiny...



it's feeding on the bread!

i stared at it for like 10 mins, taking a few pics as well...
it's quite a nice sight to see...
it's tiny legs wriggling and u see the piece of bread shrinking before your very eyes
:D

*stretch*
goodness...
i'm achy...tired...
and also frankly speaking, quite pissed off...

MEN!
are useless!
(okie, not all men...but someone i know is pretty useless)
do abit of thing then grumble till the cows come home
and let women lug heavy CNY groceries back while he stay at home and watch soccer!
okie..so maybe the match between thailand and singapore is a must-watch, die-also-must-try-to-watch-kind of match...
but but...
when the women came home, he just let the women lug everything into the house....
even though it was half time and he was just sitting somewhere SMOKING!!

oh gawd!
if this is what marriage is like after 30 years...
maybe i really should reconsider the concept of 'till death do us part'
*pppppppppffffftttttttttttttt*