one thing i have not learnt...is to keep my mouth shut.
actually, more like when to keep my mouth shut.

i dun think i've ever fought with a gal-friend so badly before...
perhaps, i see alot of myself in her
or rather, i see alot of my-previous-self in her...
and therefore i thought i can try to make things better.

i'm wrong.
who on earth did i think i am? what gave me the right to dump my own beliefs and experience on someone else?
she's right. i never experienced what she did, and therefore i have no place to tell her what i think she should do.
if i could, i'll stop talking when the conversation was about simpler things like shopping...

but 'if' never happens, so i cannot take back all the words i'd said
and now, i feel like i've hit rock bottom, with 100 feet of crap above that rock, for upsetting her
especially when she already has so much on her plate, i dunno why i went on and on and on...

将心比心，如果我有一个像我这样的所谓朋友，我也会很气吧。
也许，我根本不会更我这样的人做朋友。
嚣张、自以为是，烂透了!

the 'sorry' sms i sent is far from enough...she'll probably get angrier cos if i'm gonna say sorry, why did i even say anything in the first place?!
i know i've crossed the line and breached the boundary that was silently set between friends about what to say and what not to say...
knowing all these...being aware of what a b***h i was...i dun think i can ever forgive myself...

she may never read this, it'll probably not make her feel better if she does read it, i still have to say it.

I AM SO SORRY! SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!!!

To whoever is up there judging me:
may i be cursed with frequent sore throats and loss of voice so that i can bring less harm and viciousness into this already very cruel reality.

~gretel=pure evil~