an unexpected (and in a way, unwanted) break from work...
as of 29 July, i've finished up every single second of my 14-day MC for the year 2008
and have to take annual leave because i don't have enough MC left.

this year..sucks...in terms of my health...

forget about the fact that i actually FINISHED my MC
and let's forget about the part where i am seeing ENT for a nasal problem which they are treating with just nasal spray...

apart from that 'HFMD' scare in March,
i nearly coughed my lungs out in Feb during CNY...
on top of being 'stricken' with this almost daily sensation of giddiness...
like a final blow to KO me,
some weird viral infection that make me look all lumpy and bloated around the neck..
and let's not forget about the SOB and nausea and headaches that plagued me for the last 1-2 weeks

finally, my life has resumed some of its normality
i no longer pant when i walk from room to kitchen
and i no longer have to take postural precautions when i get up from the chair or bed
although the sore throat is really starting to kick in,
at least my appetite is slowly slowly coming back

s....l....o....w....l....y....
the whole recovery process is so s.....l......o.......w.......
but i am just glad that at least i don't feel like complete crap..
not feeling good, but at least not completely crappy...

poor mj has to put up with my yoyo-ing moods these past 2 weeks... sorry dear
from hysterical laughter (when i am not too SOB to laugh)
to uncontrollable sobs (after i vomitted and gagged till my abdominals cramped)
and mum has to go back to doing the sweeping and mopping cos i just can't do it... sorry mummy

sigh, i am like an invalid...
this useless person who can only lie there and make sure she continues to breathe in and out

but but, at least..finally, things are taking a turn for the better *phew*
hopefully, this turn continues on a path of speedy recovery
so i can go back to doing the things i really want to do..
like walk around...swim...roller blading...

part of me wants to try to go back to work tomorrow
but the other part of me knows that if i do, i'll be so exhausted that i probaby end up feeling worse on monday
so, i shall not try and save that one day of annual leave
and be selfish for one more day

now that breathing isn't taking up 90% of my attention, i can finally multitask!
i can breathe and chat on msn!
i can breathe and read a book!
i can breathe, walk in and out of the kitchen and cook porridge for lunch!

please, if you are reading this blog, do not take your ability to take a breath for granted..

and if you are a smoker, please quit.
otherwise you'll end up with COPD chronic obstructive pulmonary disease and lose the ability to breathe in and out with ease

i'm digressing...
first sign of computor fatigue
better go and rest...and continue on my s.....l.....o.....w..... journey to complete recovery

~gret is finally making progress :)~