weeks and weeks of endless things going wrong wrong wrong
and ahead
weeks and weeks of things possibly going to go wrong wrong wrong

losing faith in myself
not too sure how i'm gonna cope
with all the wrongs
and make them right

like an overstretched rubber band
about to snap
but not just yet

as if i've used up all my luck from jan to nov
no more luck left
and i think i've used up all my optimism and positivity too
(whatever little bit i had to begin with)
because
the thoughts i have now
is best left unspoken
and best left undone

have not felt like this since....
i dun even remember feeling like this

been a completely terrible person to be around with
guilty?
yes...
yet
i just cannot find the strength
to lift the corners of my mouth
and give a smile

someone said, if u smile, u feel better, ppl feel better and the world becomes better
wat happens when that 'better' becomes so elusive
and wat happens to one when a smile never made its way onto the face?

maybe this is how it feels to be kissed by a dementor
gloom
doom
hopelessness
helplessness

worse than death
and no way out of it...
except death itself

let it all end...soon