'it's going to be okay...'
as i pat myself on my back..
and hold the tears at bay...

'it's going to be okay...'
as i hug myself to sleep...
and ignore the nagging pain...

'it's going to be okay...'
i tell myself everyday...
but i can feel my determination being swayed...

'it's going to be okay...'
just another rainy day...
no rain last forever...
so i should wait...and wait...and wait...

waiting for 'it's going to be okay'
to come true in my life..
yet as i trudged through the muddy troughs of life...
feeling my energy ebbing away...
letting my emotions get the better of me...
i really do wonder...
if things are really 'going to be okay'...

feeling kinda desperate...
for abit of company...
feeling kinda lost...
and very misunderstood...
feeling very lonely...
and very near to breaking...
the barrier that has kept me safe...
right at the edge...
a precarious balancing act...
where a slip will mean a very far plunge
into the abyss of depression, anger, sadness and pain