sunday...the day to rest and recuperate...the day to feel relaxed and happy...the day to enjoy before monday comes around.

so why am i sitting in front of my comp, doing EBPP assignment and listening to sad love songs?

wish i have transport concession, then i can go down to st kilda's...walk through the art market and eat ice cream on the beach, all without blowing a huge hole in my already "holey" pocket.

suddenly wishing i have a car...then i can just escape whenever i feel suffocated in my room. then again, going out alone isn't fun. haiz...lose-lose situation eh?

it is at times like this when i wish i have someone. desperado huh?? yeah,i admit i can get pretty desperate when i am feeling lonely..wuahahaha. but hey, i'm only human..and i'm a gal. i need a basic dosage of attention too. while i've been showering attention on people around me, i'm deprived of attention. sooner or later, i'm gonna run out of attention for others...and then what?

still remember when i was young, my mum would tell me that if i treat other people nicely, they'd treat me the same way too. now, i wonder if that's just something she said so i'll be nice to her. cos right now, i am indignant at the amount of mistreatment i've been receiving...from supervisors to patients, from friends to total strangers on the tram. what happened to 好心有好报？what happened to what goes around comes around?

i dun like being in the apartment and craving to go out...only thing stopping me is that i have no idea where to go. hmm....a rhumba-frappe from starbucks sounds good...or hot choc at KoKo Black...or sushi from Chinatown...

or even just...having someone to walk by my side down swanston street...chatting...and maybe holding hands? argh..too much romance going on around me...i'm jealous...

i feel blue...blue like the cloudless sky...blue like the ocean...and blue-er than i thought i can be. *sniffle