define "lying" please, somebody?

cos i think i've been lied to far too often these days, so much so that i am wondering if i have a different definition for telling a lie.

ok, maybe not alot of ppl have been telling me lies, but recently,i've had alot of "something's-come-up-last-min-sorry-i-cannot-make-it" crap. wat's with the sudden emergencies/can't-get-out-of situations?!

or maybe cos it's me...?

argh, dunno lah. feeling damn lousy. wat should have been a good sat is totally ruined. i am Pissed Off. and no amount of gelati or chips is going to make me feel better.

oh,must give special mention to dearest Dreamy who treated me to gelati yesterday (for no apparent reason...she must like me alot.haha) THANK YOU!!!!!!

i hate feeling so angry and upset. everytime i get mad, i feel like crying. and i've finally managed to stop crying for the past 3 nights. i dun want to start again. crying makes my eyes swell and throb, and not to mention the SOB and hiccups that follow. ARGH!! damn this tears flowing down my cheeks...*hic**sob*

craving for a comforting shoulder...sometimes, when i am this upset, i wish i am a kid and can just bawl my eyes out without feeling guilty. most of the times, i just wish i am never born so i can stop suffering and bringing misery to the other human beings.