it's that time of the day when i am not full enough from my measly sandwich and mandarin, yet not rich enough to buy something else to eat/trying to decrease food intake for the ball in 7 days.

i.e. Gretel is feeling cranky

my stomach is growling at me for depriving it of food. well, not deprived, just not filling it up as much as it would like. but i've got a ball in 7 days...the last thing i need is to put on some extra fats on my tummy and butt and look like a dumpling in germ's black dress. also, i going bodystep later, so doesn't make sense to eat so much now cos i'll get hungry after school anyway. might as well eat a bit after school (something healthy hopefully...) so i won't faint from hypoglycemia (low blood sugar) when jumping around the step.

i wish i can stop eating so much. sometimes when i look back at my food intake, i get a shock, especially since i am not particularly overweight. but i do eat like a sumo wrestler. i eat alot more than germ - more rice, more porridge, more noodles, more pasta, more chips....etc etc etc...

i think everyone's comments about how i have lost weight instilled a sense of false security in me. now i keep thinking i can eat more cos i've slimmed down. in fact, ppl have been telling me to eat more cos i sh0uld gain some weight back (apparently i've started to look anorexic or something...)

just calculated my BMI during the lecture on exercise and obesity. my BMI is ~20, which is normal for an asian. *phew* okay ppl, i am NOT underweight, so stop asking me to eat more. thank you very much. even my mum has gotten into the flow of asking me to eat more after i told her i lost weight. i hope to be one of those who return to singapore without gaining any extra weight...spent the last 3 years listening to my mum, brother and HW telling me i've put on weight each time i landed in Singapore. this year, it's gonna be different...at least i'm trying to...

maybe i should forget about cutting down on food and just build up more muscle. haha...that way,i can look good and still eat all the food i wanna eat. oooh, craving for so many different kind of food now. *drool drool* 6.5 months more before i can once again taste good, authentic roti prata at 60c per prata kosong. *sob* envy those 3rd years going home in june (which is in abt 4 weeks time!!!) if only australia has no quarantine..i'll ask them to bring back all the yummy food.

i dunno how girls in singapore are all so slim and tiny. with all the laska,char kuay teow, roti prata,mee pok tar,cai tow kuay blah blah blah, how to go on a diet?? it's like torturing yourself!

at least down here, it's easier. well, having sandwiches everyday is already a form of diet (and a form of torture for me....) sigh...all this talk about food is making me very very hungry...and getting more and more cranky. *hmph*