despite a rather activity-filled saturday, my mood is dropping lower and lower. could be a rush of hormonal changes cos..well...cos i'm a gal...or maybe it's just that the day just put me through the kind of stress i hate most...

dressing up

physio ball in 6 days. 6 days!! and still,i am wondering whether to put a stupid flower in my hair. why can't the theme of the ball be something more normal..or have no theme at all?? cos quite honestly, i dun care if it's "dressed to get lei'ed"...dun care that people are gonna turn up with flowers in their hair and by their faces. i dun like having a big flower next to my unimpressive face. the last thing i want is to draw attention to that area. having a pink fake flower isn't gonna help....

also dunno why i let myself be convinced to go to the ball. sure, it's the last year and i should go and have fun. but,i am not in the right mood at all. the ball has turn into a nightmare for me (after burning a huge hole in my budget for the month...) last year,i didn't have fun...and unlike the other 4th years who are determined to have fun this year, i just feel damn apprehensive about it.

feeling suck sucky sucky!!! wanna hide in my room and sulk and pout and throw a big tantrum...only problem is i cannot let germaine suffer. she's already had a long day at work..and then letting me drag her around looking at flowers. sorry germ..and thanks for coming with me.

i feel blue...blue blue blue....i need a hug..and the urge to bawl my eyes out is overwhelming. i know i know, there's nothing to cry about. sadly, crying is about the only way i can vent my emotions out.

i'm a silly girl...i admit i am stupid and silly and childish...and i really really wanna cry!!!!