called my mummy just now. felt super-duper guilty cos the moment she answered the phone, she said,"我以为你礼拜天会打来。" yesh,i am one of those ungrateful/unfilial children who did not call home on sunday. but, i did send my mummy a card, and she was very happy with the fact that i've sent her a card on time every year i am stuck in this foreign land.

anyway, my family and my 姑姑's (father's sister) family are all gonna come to Aussie for tour at end of this year. that's 8 people, including me...amongst which include a teenage cousin and a primary school cousin. OMG...can't imagine the chaos when we enter Dreamworld or Movieworld at Gold Coast. ok,back to the original point i am trying to make. my mummy is pressuring me to find more info on accoms and stuff...but i am S.W.A.M.P.E.D. with work...luckily she was understanding and told me to check it out during my break in June. *phew

and then, the conversation somehow led to HW...my single status and my desperado attitude...and i actually told my mum,"妈，我看我是嫁不出去了。怎么办？？？" this statementwas promptly followed by "也不成你随便找个人就嫁嘛！" and a 1.5 hour lecture on looking for the right guy....about how i should learn from my experience and should now know what kind of guy is good for me...

problem is..i dun think i do. *scratch head* i tend to get too emotional and rely too much on The Feeling. like, if i FEEL something, then i'd tend to jump head first into a relationship. sighz. so i also dun really know what exactly to look out for in a guy...sad to say. it's easy to just list off the criteria i want in a boyfriend...but from my experience, all these criteria just get thrown out fo the window when The Feeling takes over. yikes

anyway, talking with my mummy was fun. our relationship has evolved into almost like a friendship thingie. i could whine and whinge to my mummy about feeling lonely, about not being used to singlehood...blah blah blah. and she drones on and on with complaints about my father (and how i shouldn't follow in her footsteps..haha) and my brother (how he is getting older and not yet planning to get married). my cousin's getting married end of this year...and my brother is supposed to be next in line...followed by me.... *lifts eyebrow* maybe one of my younger cousins would actually overtake me...haiz...

it's getting late..and i am having my usual post-staring-at-comp-for-hours head+neck+back pain. *yawn* guess germ would be up late tonight...since ken is here and they'll probably chat and ermm...and dunno wat else they do...*snigger*

ahh...i miss that kind of companionship. *sniffle* right...bedtime...hopefully JC would come into my dreams again. wuahaha!