was bumming around after coming back from Bodystep, when a hwa chong song suddenly found its way out of my rusty brain and start playing in my head. it was one of my fav hwa chong songs...

《心旅》

悠悠如云年轻彷徨的心，飘然来到黄城里。
真诚尝试寻觅什么，添满空白的心灵。

情感找到归依，华初温暖轻扶我心。
点起一盏引路的灯，不再迷惘。

扬起心灵的风帆，朝着梦想起航。
旭日暖意陪伴我，歌颂黄城地动人。
转瞬间心灵的交错，闪眸映出真心你我。
哪怕路多长，浪多高，我们不曾动摇。
转瞬间心灵的交错，闪眸映出真心你我。
哪怕路多长，浪多高，我们不曾动摇。

ahh, i miss those HC days. and i miss singing these songs which are written for and sung by hwa chong-ians. now, hwa chong is no longer a JC, and i am quite upset by the change in its name. i guess that gives me even more reason to keep those brown "sandpaper" shorts with HJC or HCJC printed on it.

looking back at those times, feel like i am so so old now. haiz, never make full use of those times. although HC not famous for producing cute guys, there were a few outstanding ones in my batch. (and most of them wear kaki shorts in the first 3 months...) now, 4 years later..it's all too late.

that's the bad thing about studying overseas. uni days are the best times to mix around with the opposite gender and do some "research" on what guys are good or bad. getting stuck in a foreign land minimise that chance to almost nothing. especially since i feel 'kosong' attraction to non-Singaporean guys. sighz...

so many people have been telling to look for "The One" when i start working (and often emphasising on that fact that i'll be working alongside DOCTORS) but working life is so busy. where got time to go 'paktor' (dating)??

oh man,such depressing thoughts. serves me right for coming over here lah. could have done a science degree at NUS...hang around more guys and gals my age and continuing being Ms Ni teaching biology...but noooo, i chose to come over to b***** melbourne. shucks. now i am single...and turning 23 in 6.5 months...no dates, no guys *groan groan*

geez,i've just made myself sound damn desperate. wuahahaha. ah well, i guess it takes alot of effort and time to get used to singlehood. maybe i'll never get used to it...and end up feeling lonely forever. *grimace**sob*

"Before I Fall In Love"

My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
'Cause my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true, could you really be

Someone to have and hold
With my heart and soul
I need to know, before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now, before I fall in love

I'm at the point of on return
So afraid of getting bumed
But I want to take a chance
Oh please, give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one, that you'll always be

It's been so hard for me to give my heart away
But I would give my everything, just to hear you say (you're)