there is something comforting abt being indoors while it is pouring with rain outside.
soothing sounds of rain pelting against the windows...
watching the raindrops slide down the glass...
and seeing the distorted image on the other side of the window...
knowing that i am dry, warm and safe...
as if i am in a cocoon, sheltered from the threats of reality...
for perfection, add in a steaming hot drink, a good book or DVD, and i'll be more than happy to lie on my comfy bed to read, or lounge on my bouncy air mattress and watch TV.
weather's been hot hot hot for the past few days. i've never crave for rain in melbourne. but right now, i feel cooler, and more calm with myself. guess the hot weather contributed to my crankiness...or maybe that's just an excuse for me to act like an b****
or maybe, it's just that finally, the weather matches my mood. being around happy people only makes me feel more inadequate, and the sunny weather only further emphasise the point that i am the odd-unhappy-one-out. now the sky is gloomy, and rain is falling...
*gretel sings: listen to the rhythm of the falling rain, telling me just what a fool i've been.....
but,good things never last. the sky is clearing...and the sun would shine once again. my sadness would once again be as glaring as the sun rays and my loneliness once again a contrast to the companionship others have seeked and found.
still, i shouldn't be selfish. everyone wants warm sunny weather, except me. so let the sun shine, and let the rain clouds stay in Gretel-land.
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