the power of time

just 4 days ago, i was sitting with germ and XD, having yummy gelati along Lygon. and yet here i am, 4 days later, 100% less happy, 100% more stressed and 1000% tired

such is the power of time. to just slip by unnoticed, until one day, you look back and wondered where did all those time go to. such is the power of time. to wrap itself around your eyes and then just float away, leaving behind the trail of destruction you have created.

i dun like to look back. i dun like to look ahead. i live in fear of tomorrow, and in regret of yesterday. but, i always unconsciously store far too many memories. and they are like undeletable files in my brain. always there, always present to haunt me with days gone by. with incidents i long to forget or hope to relive, with people i wish i can meet again. and then, there is tomorrow. even though i keep telling myself never to look forward to it, i still do it all the time. and yet, when tomorrow rolls around the corner, i am still faced with the same troubles.

i want to jump off this merry go round that never stops. if i die when i land, then so be it. at least then, i won't have to remember yesterday, get through with today and dread tomorrow. but, as if a chain has been tied around me, i am stuck...until one day, the chain gets worn out and i get thrown off from the cycle.