feeling down and under in the land down under

can't belive i am back here.can't believe i am wearing 3 layers of clothes and still freezing my ass off.can't believe i am typing this entry in the phsio school comp lab.

can't believe i am stil alive. *scream*

this week is "STRESSED!!!" week. reasons for stressing?
1)2 assignments due on friday and monday..
2)1 group assignment due on friday that my group has not even start on *pulling hair*
3)clinic starting next week
4)trying to rent out my CS apt
5)moving into germ's place over the weekend

on top of the fact that i am homesick,lovesick and generally already not feeling too good about the stupid weather melbourne has.

i seriously thot i was going to pass out from the cold and loneliness last night.and perhaps never waking up again.

but surprise surprise,i jolt to a horrible awakening when my alarm went off at 7.30am. i shut the alarm and then duck my head under my quilt again. 5 more mins please!!

i seem to only want 5 more mins in bed when i am back here.can't blame me yeah?it's so damn cold that leaving the comfort of my warm quilt is like getting kick in the nuts for guys and going through labour for gals....or something to that effect.

i am speaking nonsense...brain probably not working as efficiently due to slower rate of enzyme activity because of the low temperature...ahh,i still remember something from my a levels bio. *applause*

well,i've survived the first 2 days back in Oz land.146 days to going home.i am counting down...oh,i must mention a big THANK YOU to germaine for spending the night at my apt on my first night to keep me company.saved me from crying my eyes out that night...although i am ashamed to say that i did cry last night. but hey,my mind starts wandering when i am all alone in an empty apt...and generally,my mind tends towards thinking "WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE!!!!!" so,out come the tears and my hands reach for the phone and calling han wei for some comfort.sweet guy he is,he tried his best to calm me down and talk me out of my gloom.i can't thank my lucky stars enough that i met him and we are now together. wish i can give him a hug now to tell him how much he means to me...

okie,better cut it out before it gets to mushy

well well,at least germaine is planning to stay over tonight again.YAYYY!!right now,i am trying my best not to think abt tomorrow night,when i am all alone again.

so,146 days to going home...2 more months of cold before spring kicks in and brings some warmth back into my life...6 more days to the start of neuro clinic at repat...3 more days to moving into germ's place...6.25 hours to having germaine at my place...45 mins to the next musc lecture...

counting down to the events in my life gives me a weird sense of stability. kinda makes me feel that with each passing second,i am one second nearer to the day i say goodbye to melbourne and one teeny weeny bit happier...pathetic yeah?

now this is what i call being disillusioned...*sighz*