when others seem too 'busy' to even care how you feel,
it's time to stop feeling..
be it anger, frustration, betrayal, irritation etc etc etc...
or even positive feelings like happiness, relief, joy etc etc etc...
because others do not care...
there isn't a point in feeling such emotions anymore...

to them, what you feel is the least important thing on their list...
you can be raving mad or giddy with happiness,
they don't have the time nor energy to calm you down or share your joy...

the trouble with trust..is that it's too elusive..
i always believe that first step to gaining my trust, is to make good of your words...
if you have gone back on your words once or twice, that's human nature..
but when it becomes a habit, don't ever count on me trusting you.

i've lost faith in many of my 'best' friends...
because in times of need, they were always 'too busy'

like i am always so free...

the more crap you put up with, the more you're going to get.

This is one Murphy's law I should engrave in my head...
because I am sick of being the one taking all the crap, just because i've prioritised things in life differently...

maybe i cannot stop caring...
but i can learn to stop feeling left out and unwanted
and stop placing my hopes that one day...
one fine day...
they will turn around and realise i've been waiting for them to notice my needs.

~disillusioned with friends...again~