suddenly have a overwhelming need to scream at somebody...
not just anybody...
somebody

vaguely remembered a friend told me that a person doesn't grow up except in adversities
therefore a person with a rather smooth sailing life just wouldn't get it
until the sky opens up and dumps a whole load of crap on the unsuspecting soul
then after dealing with the 'why me? why now?' and getting through the mess...
and eventually coming out alive and becoming more mature --> growing up

i'm sure we all had those moments of crap raining into our lives...
some have more..some have less..
some is like a frontal rain...light but long-lasting
some is like a thunderstorm...lightning flashes, thunder claps, torrential rain and then calmness resumes
so, in some points of our lives, we grow up.
or at least, i hope i did grow up...

which is why i am fighting this need to scream at somebody to GROW UP!
i mean, a screaming lunatic doesn't exactly portray the 'grown-up' image right?
so, it's more like a silent scream...
with alot of audible sighing
and head shaking..

i feel like a pressure cooker that is over-pressurized...
wonder who's gonna be the unluckly victim when i depressurized...

~in the red zone~