bored bored!!
I AM bored!!!!!!

argh..staying back to do stuff which i really dun care about is so BORING!
actually, it's not so much boring than it is just a total waste of time...

but..of course..being the 'scholar' *ppppfffftttt*
i cannot say no to tasks delegated...
or rather, i can say no, but i'll still have to do it anyway
-_-

i hate being labelled..
especially when it's a label which i dun even agree with...
just because i take the government's money to study a course i cannot pay for myself doesn't mean i have to take on roles that i don't like okay!
AND, i am paying back the government by working like a donkey now..

but i guess whatever efforts i put in is just NOT enough..
giving it my best shot is just not enough..
my best isn't enough..
so why even ask me to try!?

human made this world so complex that everyone is struggling to survive...
and then when we grow old, we become grumpy and can't wait to die..
but those who died made heaven and hell even more complex than the mortal world...
so people live longer...grow sicker but cannot die...becomes bed bound and contracted and loses even the basic right to stop living...
how sad are we?

the supposedly smartest species in the animal world..
yet we are slowly killing ourselves...
then trying to save ourselves..
then trying to die at the end of it all..

i want to be a hamster...
just run on the wheel, look cute while eating..then die after 1 year..
short and sweet...

~disillusioned~