u can't always get things the way u want it..
u can't always ask for things to be done your way...
u can't always have a smooth sailing day...
and u can't always make the gloom go away

they say that if i smile, my worries will flee
they say that if i dun frown, i will then be happy
they say that give and take some, so no one is left out
they say that it's about how you think, not how it turned out...

and so,
i smiled...
and i tried to chase the gloom away
i didn't frown, even when i dun get what i want...
i gave...and gave...and i didn't ask for anything in return...
and even though the day was far from 'smooth sailing',
i smiled, and tried to stay that way...

but...
as the night comes to an end...
and my tired body wants to rest...
my mind runs on its own..
and the day's events are back...
anger is simmering..
fustration is just beneath the surface...
the frown i held back is etched onto my face..
and my smiling muscles are fatigued, and i've lost that smile i held for the day...

it's not about getting what i want..
but...
dun ask me to do things i dun wanna do..
dun force me out of my comfort zone...
dun tell me 'it's what everyone wants' (because it ISN'T)
dun rationalize that this is the best way it should be done...

i dun ask u to think like i do..
so dun expect me to understand ur view
if u can't put urself in my shoes, then why ask me to be in yours?

it's supposed to be full of fun...
and i was so looking forward to it..
but now...
i'm just dreading it..
because...
it's no longer what i thought it would be..
and as much as i tell myself 'things sometimes don't go the way i want it',
i still feel the anger simmering...the fustration waiting to explode...

~not happy~