i feel like blogging something very personal...
but somehow, it seems too personal to be blogged...
i feel like i am going to drown from not talking about it...
but somehow, it seems too complex to be talked about...
i feel like if i dun say it, i'll slowly get used to it...
but somehow, it seems to get more and more intense each day...

at moments like this...
i really miss having a boyfriend..
someone who will listen to my personal thoughts...
who will save me from being drowned in my own negativity...
who will help release some of the pressure building up inside...

everyday...
i crave for that invisible someone...
even though i know..
that someone...
will remain invisible..
and so...
i continue to hide...
continue to sink..
and continue to wish for the one day..
when everything will just come to an end..
forever..
and ever