omg...
this is like...the most boring weekend ever!!!!!!!!!
and nothing i do seem to help to reduce my boredom!!!!!!
argh!!!!!!!
darn...feeling like crap despite everything i do...
and deep down inside...
silently seething at my own incapabilities to entertain self...
also...
silently crying at the fact that once again, i can't find someone to go out with...
okie..maybe i din try hard enough...
somehow...
after 2 (and sort of 3) tries...
and still not successful...
i just give up...
because...
as my head runs through a list of people whom i enjoy their company with...
every single name is either 'in melbourne' or 'busy'...
and cos what i really needed is someone i can talk to...
the list is really horribly short...
by the time i re-think the list for the nth time...
i still end up with no one to call and go out with...

parents are still driving me crazy...
always the one caught in the middle..
always the one to become their punching bag...
everything is my fault...

my mood is so cranky now..
i am ready to bite off my own head...
at this very moment...
i am actually glaring at my laptop...
as though if i glare hard enough...
someone will materialise out of my computor screen and keep me company...

i am bored...and cranky...
gonna exercise with carolina tmr...
hopefully..she remembers and dun put aeroplane..
and hopefully, the endorphins can help to elevate my mood a little...

shit happens..life's like that...
so i guess my life is gonna be me threading in a huge pile of poo lah?
crap..
feeling like absolute crap...

i need ice cream...and i really really need a hug...
*sob*