i just have to blog tonight...
even though i am really kinda exhausted...
but...too much to talk about..and my brain is in over-drive mode...
need to clear it before i can concuss

so, what's there blog about?
okie...for the first time in 1.5 months...
i went out on a saturday evening...not with my parents
yes...gretel has finally broken free of the social circle that consists of gretel, her mummy and her daddy..
and yes, gretel actually has taken one step towards expanding the circle...
at this very moment, i do feel proud of myself...
i can hear snickering..but that's ok...
because for me..it's a big step...
for others..it's probably as automatic as going to the toilet...

it's been so long that i've gone out with someone i dun really know...
and just have dinner and talk...
simply chat chat chat..about almost everything...
nice to get to know somebody...
and in a way, it's good for me cos...
when somebody doesn't know me well to begin with..i get to make an impression that differs from the usual gretel..
not being hypocritical lah...just...well, the usual gretel is perhaps..too boring?
i dunno lah...but somehow, it's easier to make a fresh new impression...
than to try and change someone else's opinions..make sense?
so anyway...it feels good...
maybe that's why even though my body is wondering what the heck i am still up and typing instead of concussing on the bed...
my mood is on a high..
one of the rare moments which i decided i should document down in my blog..
so that sometime when my mood is low again (most likely tmr evening...)
i can read this entry and hopefully relive the high feeling...
yeah yeah...escapism...
escaping into my memories so as to forget the reality...
i guess...escape into memories is better than escaping into the fictional world of trashy novels yeah?
but anyway...sincere thanks to M (he did not specify if he wants to remain annoymous, so i play safe lah)
1) for dinner - woodfired pizza! sadly it wasn't as good as i thought it would be..but better than pizza hut (duh!)
2) for the company - nice to know i have made friends out of the physio office :D
3) for putting up with my gesturing - hee...M will know what i mean...

okie...so...finally back home and it's already 11.30pm
part of me wants to blog more...
but i guess some stuff...should remain as a secret...
some thoughts...should remain as a thought...
and some words...should remain unsaid on cyberspace...