i've just finished reading a novel so trashy, i'm sure my IQ has dropped a few points.
i feel stupid now...
and on top of that,
watching 'maid in manhattan' is making me sad...
i keep forgetting that i should not, should not, watch romantic movies...
especially those cinderella type ones...
where the plainpoorunnoticed gal gets the cuterichpopular guy...
because i dun live in a hollywood movie set...
i live in the real world..
and just gotta face it right?
girls like me dun get guys like that...
in fact...
a girl like me would probably have difficulty finding a guy in the first place...

okie, i sound so desperate
but, let me emphasise that i am NOT desperate...
well...not anymore..haha
i guess what i am feeling now is more of envy...
probably a tinge of jealousy every now and then...
but, i've accepted the fact that what will come, will come..
and those that will not come...
i can whine for 24/7 and it will still...not come
so, in a way...i've found abit of inner peace...
if i am fated to spend the rest of my life alone..
then i guess i better start getting used to it now...yah?

pessimist that i am...
either i am going to be right...
and be alone forevermore...
or i'm gonna be pleasantly surprised..
when Mr Right comes into my life...

in the meantime...
i need my sleep...
and hopefully...
i find Mr Right in my dreams...
well, if i can't find him in real life...
then at least...
let him appear in my dream...

at a certain point in life, i looked back and i wondered
and then i realised that i've forgotten to look ahead and plan...
so i lost my way and made a few detours...
now that i am back to where i was...
this time round...
i'll have to keep reminding myself to look forward...
and let the memories remain in the dust...