last day of theory block...

hard to believe i've come this far
that i've survived the 5 weeks of endless lectures and exercise classes
and not forgetting the cough and phelgm that plagued me
for more than a week now.

would i miss this place when i'm gone?
would i think of the cold prac rooms
and freezing lecture theatre?
would i sit in the hospital cafeteria
and miss sitting on south lawn with the gals?

yes i will.
today would be the last day,
i would "officially" sit in a lecture theatre
with my gang of ding-dong 4th years.
after today,
we'll each go our separate ways...
to our own clinical placements
and the next time we sit together
would be one of those dreadful friday mornings.

i'd lost the sense that i'm a uni student
with the busy busy life at clinics
and just as i've grown so used to coming to uni everyday
i have to re-adjust back to the life of seeing patients and getting questions
of being on my feet and on the go

am i scared? yes i am
am i looking forward to the end?

strange enough, a little voice in my head
is telling me
that i don't want this year to come to an end
because deep in my heart i know
when i step on that plane homeward bound
a part of me would be left behind
in this foreign land.

torn apart by this strange thoughts running through my head.
a year ago
i'd give anything to be back home for good
and yet
just 365 days later,
i sit here, apprehensive about the future
afraid to face tomorrow
and trying so hard not to think
about the beauty of yesterday.