i am feeling damn proud of myself now. why?

cos i baked...yes i BAKED!! Gretel the baking idiot has finally sum up enough courage to use the oven (0ther than baking pasta) without supervision from germaine.

oh man...i feel like i've graduated from 'baking school for idiots'...*sniffle*

okay, before i start delivering a speech to thank my parents, first must say what i baked yeah? i baked muffins. i haven't baked a muffin since...ever...besides pasta, i haven't baked for 1.5 years. the last time i baked was edwin's bday cake. and it turned out to be..ermm...almost a disaster. but apparently it tasted ok, just looked like crap. *blush*

ooh..i feel a stronge sense of achievement..and a bolt of confidence being shot into my soul. wuahaha!! hmm...but this muffin is pretty easy to bake. it's SAVOURY muffin, with bacon, cheese and onion. so not the usual choc or blueberry ones. maybe that's why it was so easy. wuahaha!! hmm...now that i'm itching to try and bake some other stuff with a bit more difficulty. haven't tried using a mixer since i was 14. (that's like almost a decade ago *gasp*) maybe one day, i'll buy some cake mix and try using a mixer...first, i need to overcome my fear of that gadget.

and the muffin i baked tasted pretty alright. many thanks to Lauren cos it's her receipe *hugz* going to give some to esther, alicia and tony later. hopefully they'll think it taste ok to...*cross fingers*
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喜欢一个人，就觉得他样样都好。
他对我的每一点点好，每一丝丝的美意，
都刻在心里，甜到心坎里。
一个微笑，像是雨后的艳阳
灿烂又温暖。
一秒钟的碰触，像是坐云霄飞车
短暂却兴奋。

可是，如果不喜欢一个人，就觉得所有的好，
都成了错。
对我越呵护，越关心，越宠爱，
我就越烦恼，越恐慌，越失措。
好想逃，却又不知道要逃去哪里。
好想消失，却又不愿失去一个朋友。

脆弱的友谊，经不起暗恋的蹂躏。
男女之间，会有单纯的友谊吗？
这样的友谊，一旦有了一方的心动，
就沾污了，就不单单是友谊。
失去了单纯，这段友谊，开始被腐蚀，
渐渐地消失，慢慢地融化。

不要对我太好，我会怕，会觉得有压力。
不要对我不好，我会伤心，会认为我有错。
要在太好与不好之间找到一个平衡点
也许就是男女之间最难的一项任务。