i am burnt out.
reached the point whereby i have no motivation for anything related to academia.
all i can think of now is what i can do for the weekend.
so far, i've come up with

watch initial D
go out with MOH scholars
sleep
eat
go shopping
laze in front of TV with DVDs/VCDs
sleep more
eat more
why not some more sleep..
oh..and food sounds like a great idea!

it sucks that i have case presentation next week...
and it sucks even more that i have no money to enjoy myself.
u know what sucks more?

bloody melbourne weather...rainyfoggywindyomgwhereisthesun weather.

girls are going clubbing tmr night.
apart from the fact that i am broke..and i always cut short their fun,
i really want to go...
but i dun wanna be the one who gets a headache from the loud music..
or feel short of breath cos of the cigarette smoke...
so as much as my body is yearning to dance the night away...
perhaps a night in with a good book and hot chocolate is more suitable for people my age...

fellow fourth years at RCH with me had been lamenting how old they feel..
and that makes me feel about a century older...
they turn 21 this year..and they say they feel old
what about me?!?

it's not good to feel like i am 100 when i am only turning 23
and it'd not good to feel burnt out when i'm already halfway there...
i need a break..
and a break is defined as a period of more than 2 weeks
with no assignments, no case presentations
no clinics, no uni.

sadly, that break is nowhere in sight.