been eating too much baked stuff. baked pasta...baked rice...too much cheese, too little exercise

i'm growing fat...again! dammit!

okay, must get some exercise done this week. better burn some of those fats before the weather turns even colder and my body decides that more fat is better. *grimace*

JF and edwin would be on their flight home to Singapore now. *sigh* why am i stuck here?!?! so homesick, it's not funny anymore. but strangely, my homesickness now is so different to that i had in the past. no tears, no bawling on the phone. just a quiet sense of sadness, a gentle reminder now and then of the yummy food and warm, balmy wind. i guess that's what it's supposed to be when you don't have a bf back home. perhaps i was really more lovesick than homesick back then. but i really do miss mummy, especially her cooking. din get to eat much of her cooking in dec cos home was under renovation. which reminds me..i wanna see how it looks like now when it's all done. and also..i miss my bed, and my big fat bolster. *sniffle*

and the guys would be meeting up in singapore...probably going for sake sushi buffet..without me. arghz. and, initial D opens in 2 days!! AND, JC is in singapore today!!

i'm whining..i'm whinging...i'm behaving like a little kid.

working with kids day in and day out, i really wish i can be a kid. just bawl my eyes out and scrunch up my face, and mummy would pick me up and sayang me.

life is getting far too complicated again. i hate it when this happens. can't sleep, and keep thinking of eating...or maybe the eating is due to PMS. all the craving for cheese and chips.

my tuna sandwich just taste like crap. *bleah*