pain...

it started as a teeny weeny bit of pain
right deep inside where i can push it to the back of my mind and ignore it.

and then, it developed into this nagging ache.
constantly there, always biting.
still, i can occupy my mind with something else, and push it out of my consciousness.

now, nothing i do helps. it's there, a sharp twinge whenever i forget about it.
as if it's trying to remind me of its presence.
driving me insane, completely thrown off balance.

never knew i would feel like this.
i thought i would be ok with it all, cos i knew it was going to happen.
i was mentally prepared, i braced myself for it to come.
so why am i so badly affected? why??

please let the pain go away.
it's getting too much to bear.
and i dun wanna feel it anymore
i can't run away, i can't hide. i can only face it, and it's just getting too hard.

too hard...