half an hour ago, i was undressed and halfway through putting moisturiser on myself when i heard knocking on the door. as germaine was out, i had to be the one to answer the door. so, i put on my clothes as fast as i could. and the knocking kept going on and on...
after what seem like an eternity,i got my track pants on...rushed to the door and opened it to find Esther standing there.
E: Why you not coming to watch movie with us?!
G: HUH?? i din know it was confirmed mah.
ok, i know i've committed alot of wrongs recently. but, does than mean everyone gets to play a guilt trip on me? i was merely trying to forget about my lousy musc clinical marks...trying to enjoy F.R.I.E.N.D.S. on my laptop...trying to stem the flow of tears down my throat instead of down my cheeks. how was i to know there was a confirmed movie thingie tonight?
and why do i get blamed and labelled as "anti-social"? was it my fault? did i do something wrong again?
esther said i very bad...dun wanna join them for movies. but... i din even know they are going for movie tonight. so how come she still manage to make me feel guilty and that i've just disappointed a whole group of people?
i'm confused. i have people telling me i am nice, i am not evil...not mean...and then now,i have somone coming to my apartment and telling me i am "very bad" and "anti-social". so what am i? good or bad? right or wrong? nice or nasty?
i dunno wat to think anymore. and i dunno who to turn to anymore. who should i ask for help? who can i ask for advice? who would not shun me? who would listen and let me cry?
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