cannot believe i am sitting at esther's dining table and typing this entry on her laptop.
it seems just one second ago that i was still in han wei's arms at the airport, telling him to take care of himself..
it seems just one second ago that i was still at home, helping out with the renovation works.
i've cried, as usual, when i stepped into my already-well-packed apartment 3N10. called esther and woked her up. she was so sweet. hearing my sobbing voice, immediately rushed over to helped me move my stuff to her place. was in the company of esther, germaine, germ's mum, kenneth and ali. went to footscray to visit their CNY carnival. had vietnamese noodles for dinner. esther is cutting up mangoes now for snacks. and i haven't shed a tear since esther came around to pick me up.
but now, as the darkness finally engulfs melbourne...i can feel that familiar sense of loneliness seeping into my soul. that pain in the heart...that ache in my head...that stinging sensation in my eyes...that lump in my throat.
and i am very sure that the moment my eyes are shut, and the lights are off...i would very likely break into uncontrollable sobs...i'll start craving for the tight embrace from my dearest guy...
i want to go home....i really really do...
lao gong, i miss you so much...pls come here soon..please...
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