this is why i am not an optimist

just 2 days ago,i was happy. i was smiling.and then,the whole apt fiasco got worse and worse.

right now,i cannot remember why i was happy...or why i even wanted to move out in the first place.

and this is exactly why i am not an optimist.i hate the feeling of being happy and on the top of the world...only to be struck down and drop to the deepest level of hell in the next moment.

i hate being disappointed like that. and i hate that moving out is becoming such a nuisance. suddenly,staying alone seems a million times more appealing.

now i fully understand the song by The Beatles...

Yesterday,all my troubles seem so far away.
Now it seems that they are here to stay
Oh,i believe in yesterday.

lesson learnt:NEVER GET MY HOPES UP.NEVER BE OPTIMISTIC.

so to all the optimist out there,i really admire your ability to actually face all the disappointments thrown into ur face and still believe something good would happen.

the little silver lining on the gigantic grey cloud:i am flying home on 5 Nov!! yippee!! 2 more weeks and i can temporarily say goodbye to this sucky place.

and hopefully things would have been all sorted out by then. sighz