yesh,the day i dread is just round the corner. i dun used to get monday blues. but i guess with my cranky mood,everyday is blue...
germaine and esther came over to my place for a study marathon cum sleepover...and they insisted on taking the couch and the floor. earlier this morning,i heard them saying to each other that they felt cold during the night,especially esther who slept on the floor. feeling guilty cos she came here for sleepover and in the end din get a good night's rest. sighz. then she say she dun wanna come next saturday cos exams coming and she cannot afford another night of cold and restless sleep. i guess that's fair. just feeling kinda like a lousy host...
i like it very much when they come and stay over. it's nice to wake up in the morning and have someone to talk to...someone to have breakfast with...it's comforting to know that when i talk,someone would reply....but after the experience of last night,i guess they won't be too keen to come over and tolerate the cold night again. :<
monday is coming..i can feel my mood dipping lower and lower by the moment. germaine is leaving soon...i can feel the loneliness seeping into me and the tears in my eyes all ready to flow out. i hate being so clingy to people. no matter how hard i try,i get too attached to some people and then when they leave,the pain becomes intolerable.
as my mum always say:all things must come to an end,no matter good or bad.no one can be with another forever.that's something that i must try and apply in my life.
i guess the silver lining of the week is that i only have 2 more weeks before i am on a plane back home..back into Han Wei's loving arm, back to the life where i could be happy,where i could laugh like an innoncent child.
12 days to go...three assignments to do,1 case presentation and 1 clinical exam later, i would be back home...can't wait for that day to come..
in the meantime,it's back to my assignments sighz....
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