I confess...
I have the inability to say NO, coupled with a resistance to saying YES

Just ask Panda...I hardly ever say YES to him...and I don't say NO, I just glare at him and smack him till he gets the point =P

On a more serious note, this inability + resistance has landed me into some awkward situations...

And to top it all off, I can't seem to learn from past mistakes that peoples' words are really not that worth my trust...
Because there is only a small handful of people who says something and keep to their words
The rest of the world seem to think that words is made of something yummy and continues to eat their own words

Which pretty much puts me in the infamous location between the rock and a hard place
And that is where I am right now...
Trapped between what is the right thing to do, and what is the right thing for myself
How I wish these two can exist in the same realm...instead of 'giap-ing' me in between


Last night, before my lavender essential oil lulled me into yet another restless sleep
I asked myself: why? why didn't you just say 'NO'!!
And with that, I fell asleep and woke up feeling like I didn't sleep at all
Now, I am trying to fight the sleepy bug and buoy up my sagging mood..

I should be all excited about flying to Zurich...
But all I feel is a growing sense of apprehension and fear
I can feel my gastric juice churning and digesting my stomach lining away...

omg...OMG!!!!!!!!
I am so freaked out, I just realise this post is not making any sense at all..
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~need hug hug~