sometimes, all i want is to share something funny that had happened...
it could be 'haha' funny
or 'what the' funny
or 'i can't believe it' funny

but i guess, my sense of humour is not mainstream...
so whatever i find funny, other people may not think so...

sometimes, i prefer to give others the benefit of doubt...
not because i am nice or naive,
just because i am trying to learn to trust.
also learning to look at the positive traits of human nature...
that other people are capable of sharing and caring without ulterior motives.

perhaps, i am being naive...
maybe, i just want to pretend that THAT is the case...
what i do know is...
by focusing on the 'motives', i negate the the positive traits..
which isn't fair to the person...
innocent until proven guilty.

and sometimes, i just don't want to waste the effort in trying to prove innocence or guilt.
time will tell...
innocence will not be tainted by wild guesses.
guilt will not be obscured by perfect lies.

at least, this is what i thought...

i guess i can take offense at a lot of things other people say or do.
in fact, i do take things at a very personal level.
and because i do that, it has caused me hurt and anger, frustration and sadness more often than i dare to admit
which is why i am trying to learn to trust myself and others...
learning to believe that some actions and words are out of pure goodwill...
learning to take some things at face value...
learning to say 'thank you', instead of 'why? Why? WHY?'
learning to say 'sorry', instead of 'but...But...BUT'

at least, this is what i thought i am trying to do...

or is it that i am actually holing myself up in a little bubble called denial?

my guess?

time will tell...
just that i may not be around to see the answer...to listen to 'i told u so'..or to say 'i told u so'

~crying kaki to the rescue~