anyone who knows me well enough knows that food is my life...
eating is the only thing that keeps me going..

and now, i am reduced to eating almost nothing..
why?
because of a giant ulcer in my mouth..
it's so big, it hurts just to open my mouth to put anything in it..
and let's not go into how much it hurts when food gets in and touches the ulcer..

each meal is like a torture...
each day is a torture itself..

now the pain is radiating into my ear..sometimes up into my eye socket...
and so, i decided that it's time to seek medical 'help'...
which came in the form of Dr T Ng...
who prescribed antibiotics and panadol only...
who wanted to give me bonjela (which is easily available in Watson's lor)
who just calmly tell me 'eat with the other side lah. try to eat lah'

b***** h***

if it's that easy, why did i even go and see you lor!

once again confirm my fear that "cream of the crop" is just a stupid line that those papayas use to make themselves look more yaya and atas...

ggggrrr...

anger is not doing any ggood to my ulcer...
throbbing pain!!

now i just wish that the ulcer will heal..
so that i can once again enjoy food and not dread every single meal...

~pain-ing~