Cincinnati, Ohio, USA
0653am
08 Nov 2008

it's day 3 for me here...
actually, more like day 2 and 1/4
because i spent 3/4 of day 1 on the planes/airports

one would think that since i've been here for a couple of days already,
i'd have gotten used to being alone in a foreign country/city
that i'd have been so delirious from the freedom that i would be grinning cheek-cheek
but i'm not...
not used to talking to myself because there's no one else to talk to...
not used to seeing something interesting but there' s no one to share with...

i must have been kidding myself when i thought that i can handle being overseas by myself...
only for a week!
or so i told myself...

i forgot that when the only person you know is yourself and noone else..
24 hours drags on and on...
and on and on and on...

usually by this time on any other trip overseas,
i'll be feel kinda desolate that the trip is ending...
only 3 more days left!
holiday is half over!

yet now, all i feel is the mounting anticipation for tuesday morning to roll around..
when i am finally on the planes and transiting at airports...
and finally beginning my journey home...

sure..
sometimes i find myself enjoying my own company...
but that last like 2 seconds..
before i realise that i really want to talk to someone i know...

now, i just count my blessings that the hotel room has cable tv...
and that i have free internet connection...
so i am not totally isolated...

3 more days...
holding my breath and counting down...

for now...
time to finish breakfast and get ready for day 2 of conference...

my day has just started...
and i'm already feeling blue...

~alone~