on MC #4 today...
at the rate i am going, i'll finish using up all my MC before the year is over..

sigh...

strangely enough, there is not warning that i am gonna be sick this time round..
usually i'll be having stuffed nose and coughing...
this time, i was completely fine on sunday..
normal on monday morning when i woke up..
but as the morning went on,
there was that feverish feeling (even though the thermometer says my body temp was 36.8)
and that aching feeling in all my muscles and joints...

temp hit 37.3 last night..and didn't come down this morning..
went to office, and realised i cannot work with all the aches and lethargy...
saw doc, took MC and after a 4hour nap..
finally the aches are almost gone..
and my temp has dropped to 37.1

it's amazing a drop in 0.2 deg Celsius in body temp can make so much difference..
i can actually sit upright to blog..
whereas all i could do earlier was lie flat and not move...

hopefully i'll be totally fine by tomorrow...
and hopefully, taking MC isn't gonna be a monthly affair :(
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情绪在病时是特别脆弱地。
把自己躲在被窝里，只有一种想哭的感觉。
渴望一句简单的问候，那很奢望吗？
全身都在酸痛的感觉，无助加无奈。
突然觉得被窝不够踏实，不管把自己缩得紧，
还是没有安全感。

不渴求家人嘘寒问暖，因为那不是他们的作风。
只想他们不要把生病当成是我的错。
我也不想病啊！
难道我病了，我会开心吗？

病情好转了，至少情绪平静了。
不会再想太多。
只要不烧不痛，那眼泪，我可以忍着。