i'm confused...
feeling alot of emotions which i do not understand
i'm so lost...
that i really dunno what to say...to blog...

trying to rationalise things...
only to realise that there is nothing to rationalise...
it was a dead-end..
i knew it..
i know it..
yet, i still keep walking towards it..

now i'm at the end...
yet i can't turn around and trace my way back...
i keep looking for a way around the brick wall ahead...
wondering if i want to try and climb over it..
and perhaps, i'll find that answer i want on the other side...
thinking that if only i've never chosen this path...
i won't be here...
yet, even though logically i should turn around..
somehow, i am stuck..
at the same spot..
doing the same thing...
making the same mistake...
falling into the same trap....

~help~