again and again...
a recurring nightmare...
happening in reality...
living in a time loop...
unable to escape...
at the end of it...
fearing the start of the beginning...
in the midst of it...
hoping for the end to come...
yet it's walking in a circle...
trying to find the start of the circle...
but one point leads to another...
in a downward spiral...
to another realm, another time...
back to 9 years ago...
the days of being isolated...
the days of facing it all by myself...
in a corner...
crying, sobbing, picking up the pieces...
walking out, clearing the mess...
reading notes, trying to study for my O's, my A's...
it felt so long ago...
yet the pain is still so fresh...

if i walk away, will the pain disappear?
if i stay, is there going to be an end?

dun wanna be in a corner anymore...
no more strength to dry my own tears...
dun wanna cry myself to sleep..
no more strength to face the day...

it hurts too much to say it out...
it stings too much to keep it in...
at a lost...
nowhere to run, to hide...
just want it be over...
for good..
forever...