someone once said to me...
that time will heal all wounds...
another someone once said to me...
that anger means i am moving on...
so many others have said to me...
that you just ain't worth my attention...

yet as i plough through week after week of work...
wondering and pondering...
thinking back and looking forward...
i found myself starting to lose faith in the healing powers of time...
i found myself leaking the anger i summoned up...
i found myself paying even more attention to you...
no matter where i am...
i look out for the chance that maybe, i'll meet you somewhere..
and of course, disappointment has become my shadow...

i'm upset...i won't deny that...
a friend cares...and a friend keeps in touch...
so i guess...
what we had...
was less than friendship...
what we shared...
was nothing to you...and everything to me...
a form of rejection that left me high and dry...
as if you led me onto the dance floor...
only to leave me behind and walk away...
so there i am...
still on the dance floor...
hoping you'll return to finish the dance...
yet looking completely idiotic while people are dancing happily to one song after another...
it hurts...
and i am sick of feeling the pain...

i want it to be over...
but i can't seem to find the strength to walk away...
i want it to be over...
yet an intangible force keeps me firmly rooted...
i want it to be over...
can you hear my plea...?
can you see my tears...?
if you can...
please...
let me know that it's over...
**************************************************
was supposed to put up photos of ophir and blog about the climb...
but my anke is sore..
my neck is sore...
my head is throbbing..
and i feel like crap...
maybe sometime this weekend...i'll finally get to the blogging...
rightnow...
i need ice cream!