sore throat...
not the kind that goes away with lotsa water...
but the kind that seem to originate from a swollen tonsil...
or swollen tonsils...
like the kind i had when i was in brussels..
where i 'cured' it with pralines/choc tasting at the shops...
cos when u are in belgium
and the shop owner offers u choc FOC
u take it..
sore throat or not...
it's yummy...it's free...so, eat it. full stop, case closed...

but now...
nothing seem to make it go away
not even downing lotsa water...
this persistent ache in right at the back of my mouth...
this irritating itch right there...with this pain that seem to shoot right into my nasal passages
argh...

i hope i dun fall too sick to go to work...
i'll feel really bad...
probably worse than if i actually go to work despite being sick...
then again, i'll be putting my patients at risk then..
argh...moral dilemna...

my first vday in 4 years as a single gal...
my collegue jokingly asked..."so,jin tian jia ren you yue ma?"
(jia ren as in a date...)
and so, i jokingly answered "got! jia ren de jia lor"
(jia ren as in family...)
yet somehow..that joke seem to only make me smile on the surface
and frown/sob inside
well...vday is gonna be over in less than 4 hours time
(according to singapore time)
perhaps because i faced today as any other day...
it went by pretty fast...
until that 'joke' my collegue cracked...
i even managed to make myself forget that today is vday...
so, i guess it's all in the mind...
because for a gal like me...
vday is just another day...
14 Feb is just a date i write when i write my notes...
no roses...no date...no nothing...
without expectations..
at least i know...
i won't be disappointed on this day this year...