'S.A.D.N.E.S.S.'
this word is starting to fail to describe how i am feeling.
my lousy language abilities do not have enough words to even begin to describe what i am feeling right this moment.

i've just finished re-watching S.O.S. and i believe i should stay clear of romantic shows/books for the time being. it bites, it stings...it makes me wanna just give up on the whole notion of 'the right one is waiting'...and i probably should stay clear of lovey-dovey couples...just in case in my extreme pain, i'll lose my mind and end up commiting murder or something.

i am so upset...and weirdest bit is i dun really know why i am this upset. crazy eh? yeah...that's me...

screwed-up, neurotic, starting-to-become-psychotic Gretel

argh...so much to say, yet not having a way to say it. clinic exams tomorrow...probably contributes to my declining mental state. i am eating, breathing and dreaming of my clinic exams. i am practising subjective assessment in my dreams, for goodness sake. i am so scared...and i am so tired...and i am so...so...so....lonely.

i dunno wat to do...part of me want to scream...the other part of me just wanna hide under my quilt, hug myself and cry until i have no more tears left.
pent up emotions and fustrations are bubbling and boiling away...
life's crap...
and it gets crappier every moment...

i want mummy.......and i want yummy food cooked by mummy......
i. want. to. go. home.