i've never believed in miracles...never hold my hopes high
i live in pessimism,
and i see hope like a giant soap bubble...
disappearing in the blink of an eye.

yet somehow this time, i wanted it so much
i gently fanned the flames of desire
and lit my hopes aglow into the darkness of the night
i wished for it everyday
i think of it everynight
i waited for that moment to come
when i can raise my hands into the air
and shout with glee
and realise that miracles do exist in real life.

what miracle has happened??
i think most of you would have guessed it..MOH did reply today!!!!!!!
and the first 2 words in the email was "good news!!!"
and it was definitely good news...
cos NHG says my tentative date of starting work is 11 Jan...
which means...
i can go for my trip to europe!!!!!

my face is frozen in a giant grin...
laughter keeps bubbling from within
and suddenly i feel like i am floating on a gentle breeze
with that giant boulder off my shoulder...
life begins to look that little bit brighter...

of course, it won't be long before i crash back into reality
and realised the amount of work i have to complete...
and the amount of stress i have to endure..
still...just for the moment,
i relish in the tranquility of shedding one burden
and in the relief of knowing that the people who have paid for my education
are indeed people after all.

thank you to my parents, who supported my decision to go...
thank you to Mdm Goh, who has helped me so much...
thank you to NHG, for letting me go on my trip...
thank you to wp, who has listened to my woes and maintained a positive outlook for both of us.
and,
thank you to all those who had been there to support me when i was fustrated and demoralised.