one more week of hols left...
still haven't finish my assignment...
motivation remains record low...
excitement to go to Geelong and ski-ing is decreasing...
dread to go to clinics increasing...
stress about other assignments coming on...
worry about exams starting to infiltrate my thoughts...

wish someone is here to go out with me...
stroll by the river...
or maybe the beach...
just silent company...
sharing unspoken thoughts...
haven't felt that kind of connection...
with another human being for so long...
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想啊想，结局不变。
不执着，谈何容易？
“放下，放弃，放宽心”
嘴里不说，心里却念个不停。
话哽在喉咙里，
不敢说。
希望收在心里，
不敢看。

梦里梦外，分不清是真是假。
只知道孤单的感觉，
让我好难受。

没有人陪，我不在乎。
自己的世界，我自己掌控。
可是寂寞的阴影，
在我身旁绕来绕去。
一直提醒着我，
自己的世界，永远都有寂寞陪伴。
不让别人走进来，
寂寞就永远不离开。

想打开心，怕被伤害。
想主动，怕历史重演。
所以，
还是那两个字：等待 等待 等待